Im kinda confused. I have finally done what my friends have told me to do and Im not sure if I should have. I mean if he was the bad friend then why do I feel incredabley horrible without him being around? We had fun, we just would fight...alot...I thought it was my fault but it seems like everyone says it was him. How is that possible that he is ( Read more... )

Love me when Im Fake
Hate me when Im Sorrie...

....And Im Sorrie....

Would I continuously ask you to forgive me if I didnt really care what you think or feel? Would I smile at you and listen to your hurtful words so it wouldnt turn any worse? Walk beside you when the last thing you wanna see is me just so you dont think I dont care? I hate ( Read more... )

well...i dont know. i hate emotions but then what would be the purpose of living? Just to breath knowing you would never to do better but then that wouldnt bother you since nothing did....i dont know.....i think i hate the state of confusion....and love.....and hate...and gosh.....i just dont fucking know anymore....i see things so clearly ( Read more... )

well i just dont know...i havent wrote in a long time...i havent been busy just lazyness i suppose...ive been kinda down for no damn reason...i shouldnt bemy mom said i could have a party over spring break but what good is that when everyone i know is leaving port urine? no fucking good at all. uh.....the weekend was OK...i thought i might die in ( Read more... )

Life is good for today...I slept almost all day..Im reading like 4 books....The DaVinci Code (again), The Message (the bible in contempory speech), Beloved, and Come As You Are (Bio 4 Nirvana)......When you dont have many friends you should be able to get alot accomplished but not without motivation and so I read..FUN. well my mother needs the comp ( Read more... )

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You have hurt me again my friend...and in the end is it worth it?

Last last was FUN....dont remember exactly what we did but it was FUN. We got new BAR glasses and had to try them out.....CREAMY WHITE RUSSIANS (looks like coffe kinda)........That is the latest news from Metal Core Teresa and EMO LN

 This weekend was FUN....Friday I was incredabley sick but I tried to call people and bowling all figured out but I didnt....Saturday I went bowling with Molly, Melissa, Angela, and Mike. It was FUN! I sucked it up pretty dang bad but that was on purpose to make everyone look better. : ) YEA....After bowling we went to Mickey D's and got milkshakes ( Read more... )

Its only the second month in the year and Im kinda bumming and dreading if it gets any worse..... I miss my Grandpa alot and I am worried about my Grandma. Im trying to be as normal as I can right now when dealing with all the emotions....Anger, Depression, Confusion, and All the questions I ask that no one can answer. It's very tough and sometimes ( Read more... )