I am most certainly insane; which as Einstien put it as "doing the same thing over and over and expecting there to be a different result" I keep doing or in this situation talking to the same person and expecting things to be different. I've become a walking cliche.

I am the problem, I need to start being the solution.

You know how I always write when I'm feeling shitty or depressed and life feels like crap. Well today I'm thankful for everything I have, my friends, my family and just overall where my life is at this moment. It's not perfect it's bruised and there are low days but overall I'm a lucky boy.

I feel lost and wholly alone right now. I once again put too many eggs in one basket and per the usual things didn't pan out as i thought they should have.

where do all the lost people go???

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on repeat can't stop

I had something to say but I lost it. It's been a whirlwind kinda week and kinda feel like I'm in limbo mode. We'll see what'll happen next.

What I'd give for a crisp fall day and someone sweet to cuddle up with!

Feels like part of my heart is breaking

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So I'm 27 today! Wow I mean I know in the long term 27 is still young and I still consider myself younger but wow, 30 is 3 years away. It's one of those situations where should I be acting scared and nervous because that is what society expects. It's like you3 30's are this uncharted territory that everyone seems to have a war tale or two. I don't ( Read more... )

I'm so completely frustrated! with my social aspects. So my core group of friends which I've known for years now has kinds split up in a way and gone there seperate ways. Many are married, many have had or are having kids and the others have "real" jobs. I don't get to see them nearly as often as I like to. Going from hanging out with same people ( Read more... )