Its sad where I find myself at in my life right now.

I'm stuck somewhere between wanting to grow up and wanting to retreat back to innocence.

I'm tired of waiting for something and I don't even know what it is I want.

I'm so confused.

And I don't know how to fix it.

I'm so depressed.

And I hate it.

I want to go away .......

I have to admit that I generally like a lot of guys ... I say they're cute and that maybe they would be fun to date ... but rarely am I ever ATTRACTED to a guy ... in everyway ... not just sexually (though thats a bonus I very much enjoy) ... the only problem with me is that I am pretty much just attracted to older guys ... only this time I found ( Read more... )

The title says it all.

My heart is near extiction ... and I need someone to protect it.

Why can't people just stop playing games and be real?

Everyone expects me to be someone ... like there is some special talent lying dormate beneath my exterior. I don't fucking get it ( Read more... )

Telling myself lies
Just to prove myself right
Everyone thought they saw the truth
But no one knew how wrong they were.

Wanting to love something I've never seen
Nothing is ever what it seems
I've been denying how naive I truely am.

I've felt a hatred for others<
I've belived so strongly and faithfully
But I never saw my ignorance
And now slowly, this ( Read more... )

I just have to keep telling myself ... he flirts with everyone.

Why must things be so difficult?

I, not to long ago, started questioning my feelings towards certain people ... and it wasn't just one person .... it was many. Then I stopped and thought about how empty I would feel if I ever ditched some of the poeple I started to loath ( Read more... )

I have a boyfriend.

So.

Long time no bore.

I went to a concert last night and it totally kicked ass.

Irrational is an awesome band and you all should check them out on my space.

There was a DP (Dead Puppets) conert tonight that Josh is at and I wish I could have gone, but it's for 18+.

That sucks balls.

So ...

I met a lot of people last night (I had Skye with me ( Read more... )