o....m....g i have no idea how long its been since i last updated... i have no idea if neone is gonna read this neways; its not like neone still reads my lj lol.... the only reason im updating is because i was threatened by this person who i know could kill me with HER bare hands and not think twice about it. AHEM!! :) ok neways lol hows it been ( Read more... )

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i dont know what to feel...thru all the pain the hardship the sorrow the worrying then depression and the breaking away i dont know which one hurts me more. they all kill my heart so much and i dont know if i can even go on and survive. i dont know what i want or what i feel or what i need nemore. im just gonna give up and see what my pittiful ( Read more... )

yea tonight was fun. went to orentation at school then went to cowboys. didnt really hang out w/ gold company much cause im the GC outkast. they dont like me very much. however natassia and luke did come w/ me. so that was good. i really enjoyed getting to spend some time w/ natassia before i leave again :(. i will really miss her. i just wish i ( Read more... )

wow long time no update. omg i am so tired. gold comp is wearing me out. 9 hours of working is too much lol. the show is friday and come at like 1130 for good seats. please come :)!!!!!! it would be great to see some people again. oh and natassia i def. called ur house today and u never called me back. that hurts me lol. my whole body aches. and ( Read more... )

here what do you think of me ( Read more... )

well everyone...hes gone...my grandfather has passed away. he was in pain since last night i fell asleep at 230 and woke up at 4 cause i didnt know when he was gonna go...then mom told me to go get more sleep so i slept till 12 and my mom woke me and told me he died. i didnt know what to do w/ myself. im so depressed and i dont know what im going ( Read more... )

call the cell.....please....life is terriable.......

yes yes i know its 115 and im still up. kind of sad isnt it? especially when ur not talking to neone. ur just sitting here online hoping some1 that u want to talk to gets online. yea i dont know nemore. all i know is i miss/want to talk to some1 like crazy.....oh well guess i will go lay down and stare at the ceiling and think about things/people ( Read more... )