This will be my last entry available to the public. Apparently people unknown to me are trying to dictate my life and lay down judgements to situations they are not aware of. I've had to shut down one of my journals because of this same exact reason. If you do not approve of what is said in here then dont read it. I'm not trying to offend anyone or ( Read more... )

Everything at home and with my life has really hit rock bottom. My mom wants me moved out, someone I trusted with my life betrayed me in a unspeakable way, and school is pretty fucked up rightnow. Mouse and I talked last night and we talked the day before. I dont think I can bring myself to break up with him. I've been through so many bad ( Read more... )

I didn’t do anything at all on Friday…so very exciting! I worked Saturday and Sunday, Saturday Amber called in sick so that left only Christine and myself. It was an easy day, kind of slow though. When I got off work I went and washed my car and vacuumed it and shit. Then I took a shower and picked up Katie. We went and got a movie at blockbuster, ( Read more... )

Yeah, my situation isnt any better. To make things even worse, now his mother takes his cell during the day. So now not only do I not get to see him, now I cant even talk to him! This isnt going to work...To makes things so much better something happened last night. Something so horrible that when I think about it I literally throw up. I trusted ( Read more... )

So its Thanksgiving, I'm here at my house alone. Not because my family left me but because I want to be here...alone. Things have been so fucked up lately, I'm so mixed up. I thought I could handle this long distant shit, but I learned the hard way I cant=(. Thing is I couldnt bring myself to do what I know is the right thing...leave him. He tried ( Read more... )

A lot of things happened Wednesday, something that started out really horrible turned out to be really good in the end. So here’s the story, after school on Wednesday I had time to burn so Rett and I went to eat at Taco Bell. Yum I absolutely love that place! He and I talked about childhood memories and shit that made us laugh. He got irritated ( Read more... )

Things got pretty messed up last night, it was the first time in me and Josh (Mouse) got into a fight like that. It was over some stupid girl that ended up liking him at his new school. It wouldn’t be so bad if that had happened here, but he’s in Jasper and I can’t do anything about it. I trust him then again I don’t, it’s not his fault that I don’ ( Read more... )

How can I be feeling so much doubt? I really hate this, I hate feeling ( Read more... )

Wow, this weekend was full of very wonderful things. I’m so not being sarcastic! I had the worst week but the weekend so made up for it! Friday started out bad, I couldn’t find the McDonalds Josh(Mouse) was at. I got frustrated and almost hit Rett in the school parking lot…lol yeah that would have been so horrible if I had. Any who, I found the ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the worst day ever, I couldn’t believe how much went wrong in just a short time! I woke up happy and feeling fine, I mean my boyfriend and I had just said goodbye the night before. I was doing exceptionally well for going through what I was. Around 8:45 Mr. Diaz calls me into his office…I was confused because he’s not my administrator ( Read more... )