God I want to cry. May be not so dramatic.. I just.. I really wish I had a punching bag. I didn't ask for what happened to happen. I didn't want it to happen. I was the one that got hurt and felt used and not worth crap, so why are they made at me!? Am I just supposed to completely disregard my feelings and pretend that what I feel doesn't matter? ( Read more... )

so yeah i haven't updated in a while because i've been spending all my time on my new MYSPACE! hahahahah.. mmkay.. well.. i suppose.. spring break was interesting enough.. LA was awesome.. halo really isn't all it's cracked up to be.. men are confusing.. and baby sitting really isn't that bad.. hmmm well i guess.. thats.. it? hmmm i suppose i'll be ( Read more... )

sad movies.. they really suck.. they make you think all weird. like.. they make you wish your whole life could change for the better with no snags or flaws.. i dunno.. you know what i think? i think the movie industry has this HUGE plot to make the world go EMO!.. what do you think? is it possible? who knows.. :/ that movie made me feel all weird ( Read more... )

Well. Today is today. Nothing more nothing less. I'm living for a world of metaphors and illusions. They persuade our minds to stray uneasily yet peacefully away from that awkward truth. They put a damper on the harsh realities and of civil acts and crazed beings. We live in fear of some catastrophic change that, god forbid, could rekindle our hope ( Read more... )

sooo me and kadye are sittin here being uber-cool and all.. we just got done eatin pop corn and pizza.. cause.. i dunno.. i guess we're just pigs.. or at least i am.. may be we'll go rent a movie soon.. any ideas? and kadye cooper and her imaginary self is making me laugh a bunch.. bllaahhh dee dah.. well.. if any one feels like calling that'd be ( Read more... )

my head spinning like.. like.. a toilet.. but more confusing.. not so pleasant.. cause nothings leaving, if anything too much is being packed in.. this is a very awkward metaphor.. i told my self i was threw with guys.. now i dunno.. so i went to kevin gillespies house and hung with about two million point five band kids and tried to play halo.. it ( Read more... )

too tired.. i shall explain the following in a later entry.. LA rocks big butts.. go rollercoasters.. duck tape sucks.. i lost a twenty dollar bill damnit... GO YELLOW KNIGHT! i need sleep.. gutten nacht..

you've ALL better enjoy the word "pimped-out" in my previous entry! it took me uber amounts of time.. goodnight all.. :D

So it's six days till i'm on my way to LA, california. (california, california, you're such a wonder that i think i'll stay..haha.. i like that song, go Rufus) any way.. well i've actually and officially been 'grounded'.. i've never really been grounded before but it feels just the same as always.. i'm just as bored, lonely, and flustered as usual ( Read more... )

blllaaahhh i don't feel like talking rationally so i'm just gunna run over the past week or so in a few complicated sentences, feel free to ask questions later.. ok so i went to the epitaph tour concert wednesday and it kicked ass, i saw some old buddies, got a signature from sunny from FFTL on my poster, shirt, AND face, i got tons of pics, the ( Read more... )