I'm excited about the idea of engagement and I believe Ben thinks about it from time to time, but rarely likes to admit it. I looked at engagement rings on-line yesterday during my lunch break. I wrote down all the features of the type of ring I wanted on a piece of paper. Then I stuck that piece of paper, with most of it sticking out, in a book ( Read more... )

The previous posts are ones I wrote in an alternative blog which I only used a few times. It's interesting what I've forgotten. Journals serves as an excellant way to store memories ( Read more... )

I just realized whenever I get to the commitment stage of a relationship, I start to freak out. Am I that scared of commitment or am I afraid that I won't be loyal? When I'm in panic attack mode I don't care if I cheat, I just have to kiss someone. I don't care who; the man most likely to kiss me back, AKA the man most likely to feel hurt. Is ( Read more... )

How often do you look through a journal or that folder where you keep those poems written on anything close at hand ( Read more... )

I had a very strange dream this morning ( Read more... )

Looking for a job is never easy. Finding the "perfect" job is even more difficult. People try the on-line job sites, the classifieds, and through connections in the field. I suppose I could have taken these routes. I still may. However, I'm a big fan of random searches and googling. I typed in "creative writing" internship Michigan. Somehow ( Read more... )

Work went well today. I had plenty to do and enjoyed some brief conversation ( Read more... )

 
Amusement Park Ride

I’m far to sick from this spinning whirling ride of life

to do anything but hurl and huddle

in a pool of my own vomit.

Feeling helpless, cold, and alone, I reach out for any offered hand,

but many a hand lead me right back onto the sickening ride.

Sometimes the cruel conductor lulls me into a slow steady swirl,

enough to dizzy, but ( Read more... )

Today is one of those days where I can’t but help thinking about the “shoulda coulda wouldas.” I wish I had stuck with my idea to become a teacher. Then I could have received my degree already. Then I wouldn’t be at this job that I do not enjoy ( Read more... )

I do not know anything about boxes, at least not what I need to know to complete this project for work. My first (and only) mistake was measuring the box from outside edge to outside edge, when boxes are supposed to be measured from inside to inside. My ignorance of this standard was an accident, but completely my fault. However, I don’t know ( Read more... )