There is so much toxicity in my life.  How do I rise above it, live above it, and forget it?

I think the low points of the roller coaster ride are when I am probably thinking the clearest.  It's when I'm seeing things for how they really are, because there is no fluff clouding my vision.

I need to get off this ride before it starts going back up again.  

Was 2011 a good year for you?
2011 was another roller coaster year for me.  I suppose every year is, really.  Hurt was the foundation for 2011 though.  So much hurt.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Ironically, probably the very end of the year, on New Year's Eve.  Aaron and I went bar-hopping, which is something we never do, and we had a ( Read more... )

Four albums stand out as the best for me for 2011.

Adele -- 21
Linkin Park -- A Thousand Suns
30 Seconds to Mars -- This is War
M83 -- Hurry Up, We're Dreaming

Those four albums mimic the rollercoaster that 2011 was for me.

Adele's album applies to anyone that has ever been in any kind of relationship.  Every song can apply to someone.  In my case, ( Read more... )

You left me, sweet, two legacies, --
A legacy of love
A Heavenly Father would content,
Had He the offer of;

You left me boundaries of pain
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

woke up late today
and i still feel the sting of the pain
but i brushed my teeth anyway
i got dressed through the mess
and put a smile on my face
i got a little bit stronger

riding in the car to work
and i'm trying to ignore the hurt
so i turned on the radio
stupid song made me think of you
i listened to it for a minute
but then i changed it
i'm getting a ( Read more... )

The only thing allowed to crawl all over you when we get there, is me.

If anything ever happens to me, all of the things I ever wanted to say are in the private entries of my livejournal.

I'm debating on leaving my password with someone I trust wholeheartedly.

But I don't know.  What's the point in people knowing how I felt after I'm dead?

One of the toughest things in the world for me is to sit by and just let someone fuck something up, when I know I can do something to prevent it.  I know this is the way lessons are learned, but shit.  My life is so much easier when I don't have to watch everyone else learn their lessons the hard way.

Go learn your lessons elsewhere.

I never thought that letting go would feel this good.