I'm definitely too tired to cover all the ground I've missed since I last posted. I know that nobody reads this or realizes it's here but it just feels so cathartic to get it out in "public" and it's nice to go back and read how things have improved over time, though my next post probably won't sound a whole lot like that.

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Well, I did it. I'm currently sitting in the place I'm supposed to live now. Thankfully I got here without any trouble, albeit I was pretty bored driving at times. The town is beautiful, everyone has been very friendly and accomodating. The new place is pretty awesome save a catch or two but still a good start. I missed DJ and it's been nice ( Read more... )

It's hard to believe that in two weeks I won't be living here anymore and that everything will be completely different than it is now. Marching towards the date of my departure slowly but surely, I'm getting sort of scared. It's a mixture of emotions - happy, excited, sad, and scared all tossed together in a big salad of feelings. To be honest, I'm ( Read more... )

Quite a lot has changed since my last post, as is usually the case. I quit my job just shy of two months ago, DJ is now living in Arkansas, and I'm planning on making my way to join her in just a few more weeks. I've decided to give it a shot. I love her and can't keep making excuses for not getting out into the world and committing to someone. ( Read more... )

 It's been a few months since I last posted anything, I'd almost forgotten how much updating I'd done in the previous post.  There's not whole lot left to say, really. DJ is still on track to move to AR in May, everything has been confirmed and now it's just a matter of time.  I still really want to be with her, we've grown really close and she's a ( Read more... )

So much has changed since I last posted.  That seems to be the norm for this thing, right?  My past heartbreak has long mended. I finally gave up and accepted everything that was happening and began having a somewhat normal life again.  In October of last year, on Halloween to be precise, I met another girl.  Weird, right?  Three or four of my ( Read more... )

Feels like it's time for one of these again so here it goes.  It's been about three months since all that relationship stuff started. Things did not work out.  Not long after my last post I discovered that I no longer qualified for financial aid.  I made good grades last semester but unfortunately it was not enough to bring up past fuck ups ( Read more... )

So.  Things did hit the fan regarding the relationship.  She came back from the beach and we talked.  Long story short, it sounds like she is unhappy without me, unhappy with me, and just plain unhappy.  She has a lot to worry about right now and she dropped some cliche bullshit on me about how it's mostly her and not me.  I think there is some ( Read more... )

Shit has hit the fan regarding the relationship.  Apparently I'm terrible.  This isn't a point that I disagree with, though.  We're giving each other space for the weekend and getting back together on Monday to talk.  I have a bad feeling about it.  In fact, I don't have many good feelings about anything right now.  Super stressed with no permanent ( Read more... )

  I figured that it's about time I posted again.  This is going to be a very long post as it's been some time since I've aired out my feelings.  Somehow I always know when the time is right.  To recap, my last update wasn't very cheerful.  There were a few issues going on with the girlfriend when I posted so it probably sounded a little worse than ( Read more... )