my oh my, it has been a while.
I've come to the conclusion that people suck.
I've realized I'm a bitch.
I've realized I like boys that I can never have.
I've realized I like this boy too much.
I've realized friends don't last forever.
I've realized I'm not happy.

whatever.

I had practice all week.
I hung out with Derek yesterday.
I talked to Zabik too.
He made me think.
I'm going away until Saturday or Sunday.
I can't get on to gradebook because I forgot my log in.
So I have no idea what classes I'm in.
GAY

This weekend was so gay. You don't even know. Saturday, my dad was mad at me all day, and I didn't do anything at all. I was fine with not doing anything mostly, only because I needed a day off. Then yesterday Maura called and was like "wanna go for a run?!" and I was like "sure ( Read more... )

Okay, so much on giving up on guys ( Read more... )

Wednesday I woke up mad early and went to Six Flags with Maura and Daniella. Daniella didn't want to wait in line for anything. Whatever. I went to Kathleen's house after and slept over. We met up with Zabik and chilled. Then Thursday me and her went to the movies and saw Accepted. It was amazing. Then I went home and I went to band practice. ( Read more... )

Okay. secomd post of the day ( Read more... )

I went to my mom's house this weekend. I wanted to kill myself ( Read more... )

I thought this week would suck because everyone went on vacation ( Read more... )

i give up
i'm so confused
fuck

There's so much to say. I don't even know how to say it all. So amny emotions. I haven't felt this much emotion in so long. Saddnes, happiness, confusion, exhaustion, love, hate, even jealousy. I can't seem to go a day wiht out crying this week. this whole Vasel thing's got me shook. It's weird, cause I didn't know him that well, and I'm still a ( Read more... )