i want a girl. 
Not just any girl. 
Not your typical girl. 
But a girl whos different.
A girl who wants the world to change its hatred and violence.
A girl who will be willing to listen to my music that she might call "racket."
A girl who is sensitive but is also sick and twisted like me.
A girl who won't mind by bashfulness.
A girl who understands how ( Read more... )

today i took the hardest test i took in a while. Algebra 1 ( which i took in 9th grade) had a tight grip around my ballsack. After the test , i waited for my grandma outside, she wasnt there for a while. I was getting so angry. when i am angry or stressed, i drink soda. For years soda has been my so called "fix." I have noticed that when im not ( Read more... )

if your having a really band day, listen to it prevails

The inspiration

Letting go is the hardest thing I ever had to do.

The light of the road ahead, illuminates my, imminent time that finally came to me. So I can walk in the wake of my ideals to be casted into the burning flames. Never. More reason to go further and beyond. Beyond my wildest dreams ( Read more... )

today i had writing short stories class at 9 am; i didnt go. I had chemistry at 1. I also didnt go to that either. I wasted the day away. I absolutely hate doing this. how am i supopose to succeed in life if i cant simply go to 2 community college classes? I feel like i am better than that. I feel like something is holding me back from my potential ( Read more... )

its 6:06 am. I didnt just get up a hour ago. I been up for 13 hours. Since college started this has happened for most of the time. Sleeping patterns for me are horrible. i cant seem to sleep during the night. It has to be during the day. Its weird. I dont understand at all. My body can fall asleep at 11 pm but woke up at 2 am. i also notice when i ( Read more... )