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🎶Just a drop in the ocean, Just a flash in the night, Just a soul among billions...🎶
I spoke with a couple of good friends from older days yesterday. I have only mentioned them in passing in a few entries, but these guys were great team members of Bob's, as part of the Keen Suns early-warning system back in the days of our youth. Another set of twins that liked to have their fun like Eric and Ian, Ted and Tom bonded over muscle ( Read more... ) -
🎶I know, caught up in the middle I cry just a little When I think of letting go🎶
I see the news, hear my friends who are crowing and others who are distraught, and it all feels so far away to me. Like Rumi saying, "Inside this new love, die. Your way begins on the other side; become the sky!" I remember the basic teaching of the Sufi, when a tourist asks to see his home and only finds a mat on the floor and a simple oil lamp. ( Read more... ) -
🎶Carry me to heaven's arms, Light the way and let me go.🎶
The memorial service for Rahni was this morning, as was planned, I was picked up but not by Dave - instead it was Hoai - we talked about Reed, about Vighn and Aha, we shared our pain and opened our hearts to one another. He wanted to know my mind, my memories, about each of them. While Joy had shared moments with them that I'd brought up (here in ( Read more... ) -
🎶If anyone falls in love Somewhere in the twilight, dream time Somewhere in the back of your mind🎶
My last couple of years with the Keen Suns, when I was shifting from my childhood to teens, I worked for a couple of relatives laying cement and brick, learning a trade that I found I really liked for being able to get into a zen-like state that would bring in some pretty good money. Mostly I was a gofor... go for this, go for that... but when they ( Read more... ) -
🎶As he begins to raise his voice, You lower yours and grant him one last choice ...🎶
🎶...Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed🎶
Back when Vighn and I were 8 years old, we were walking along the riverside walkway with Aaron and Dave who were (and are) just a few years older, it was early springtime, and the rains were a bit slushy now and then. This day was mildly breezy, but the chewy rain had just ( Read more... ) -
🎶Streetlights, people, Livin' just to find emotion, Hidin' somewhere in the night🎶
I dealt with a classic case of reactive abuse last night... Reactive abuse happens when someone pushes you until you act out of character. Then, they shame you for your reaction ...I was making dinner and had just put the chicken in the pan, and BH comes in and starts harping about not wanting to get raw chicken on her plate (something I have never ( Read more... ) -
🎶Slippin' away, sittin' on a pillow Waitin' for night to fall...🎶
🎶...Girl and a dream, sittin' on a pillow
This is the night to go to the celebrity ball🎶
The night wasn't all that peaceful to start with, but I found my comfort in reverie, allowing thoughts to come to me as they would. I found it a bit funny that Rahni's mom kept a few of the evening gowns and cocktail dresses that were her daughter's. One of them ( Read more... ) -
🎶Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young...🎶
I was finally able to get some decent sleep last night, exhaustion kept the night noises from disrupting it too much, though at around 6am today the little kid downstairs and his father were yelling at one another. Annoyed, I looked at the time and did my morning routine, then considered a few things about my biological family and how I am ( Read more... ) -
🎶Just an old fashion love song playing on the radio...🎶
When I was 3, 4 and 5, there were always campouts with my biological father; and it was a big affair with relations coming from all around. We would end up at some lesser-known natural site that that had a campground there or nearby. One year, it was the Maquoketa Caves, another it was Pike's Peak, and Spirit Lake was a wonderful experience (before ( Read more... ) -
🎶Dead star shine, Light up the sky; I'm all out of breath...🎶
Anya has been having a lot of trouble dealing with this loss, the grief of Aranya is heavy with all the Sunflowers, but Anya was her sensei, the one who helped Rahni understand how to protect herself. Our dear, radiant Fireflower who has always been like that cheerful blazing campfire that keeps everyone so warm and content is feeling like too many ( Read more... )