so i'm probably safe to just say whatever and know that the only people reading are randos and maybe a stalker or something cool like that ( Read more... )

I agreed to run the sound board at the coffeehouse tonight because it was going to be a good show, which meant my percentage would be high and I would be paid well. 
I don't have a steady income because my time is still dedicated to school, but I have money to live on for a short time atleast, so I think this means I can have some standards about ( Read more... )

When people ask me lately what I've been up to, I usually tell them I don't know. I can't usually think of anything of substance to tell them ( Read more... )

There are and have been times when I feel like something is about to happen - Like there is something simmering just beneath the surface of my skin and it's about to come to a boil, bringing about remarkable change. I never know what kind of change, unfortunately ( Read more... )

Like I have nothing to show for myself. I don't like feeling like that.

I feel a lot more than I do ( Read more... )

I'm a little annoyed. I feel kind of chumpish. Today is the first day of school - but not for me. I thought I'd be interning by now, but I'm not. I "have" an internship, but it's taking forever to start. I don't know if this whole internship in dallas thing is going to work out. I'm over it before it even began, so that's a problem. I don't really ( Read more... )

I had a thought to write here, but then i decided it was moot and I should probably just get out the house and start making shit happen.

If you were me what would you do with your life?

Some days feel great! Other days feel so terrible. One day my plans are fool proof - and the next, completely fallible. I didn't feel like this one year ago, but I think that's about the time it started.

I am longing for something consistent.

I'm tired, but I can't sleep.
I don't want to wake up again in a messy house and not know where to find shit.
I"m hungry but there's no food.
I don't feel like going out tonight because I went out last night and I'd rather sleep right now.

I want my own space.