So it is, my birthday. This time i do not care for gifts or anyhting of that sort. A tradgic thing had to happen before this day came. A seperation of my friends out of others will. All i wish for now is to see all my friends together.......

happyness can only be obtained or given. it doesnt seem like it just randomly comes. but sadness and depression come always unwelcomed. A silent tourter is what aches me. i need a distraction or a release from these shackles. anything to subside or cure this poision.

MY HEART BLEEDS NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There seems to be no end ( Read more... )

where the hell am i goin with this......im lost, lost my way got off the road and went back to an old one. why is it that everyone else can so easily get away and i cant. i cant seem to just let go. i just hold on for hope. im tired of killing myself over it. tired of brooding when it gets me no where ( Read more... )

i think ive said prolly the most hardest thing ever for me to say at this point....it hurt so bad but felt good in a way.....all care is for happiness...nothing more

So here i am siting in a small club house for the condo complex on my bros laptop. Old people wandering around, my shorts a bit wet from the ocean waters, beautiful day out....only one thing missing....ill have to admit, i miss amanda a lot. everywhere i go and eveything i do i wished she was there. ever since i left she was there on my mind ( Read more... )

theres many questions left with partial answers, or hints that may be just a figment of my imagination. the "what ifs" and the "why is that?" flow through my mind. maybe its just best not to ask, then again if some of these questions are nto answerd then i might not know what i could have or wether to just leave it alone.....

tired of it all.....tired of not haveing a bit of happiness....i dont want to feel this way forever...
why cant i just be perfect...........

It Had To Be Done. i had to get away from things that were bugging me. theres so many emotions, bad ones when im around. This was the only way i could think of to get away from it and clear my head. Gve myself some space. But it seems like this option cannot be respected. Please all i am asking of you amanda is just some time away to gather my ( Read more... )