its always there. everyday and night, its there, those thoughts. thoughts of her. they dont quit, even when i try they dont. they keep going endlessly. of good and bad times. of confusing times. they keep going. at times i dont wish they would stop. at times it just feels like a poison but i dont want to cure it. what the hell is wrong with me?! ( Read more... )

I Cant Stand These Kind Of Days. i feel like i just dont give two shits about anyone or anything. i want to sleep and dream and never come back. i dont want to go out or do anything. i want things that constantly run through my head to stop!

...im sorry for today.

there are things i dont understand in this world but one thing is only ourselves can make our lives a living hell or a heaven.

i fear this night like every other night....

I Really Dont Know Why I Even Write In Here ( Read more... )

ok so even though i didnt do much of artsy things last night, well i did write poems. i still had a pretty good time even though i was playing videogames. i did like watching jasons picture come together which came out rele good. I do have an artisict sense about other peoples work (ive helped my bro in some of his drawings by telling him what ( Read more... )

this is a posion i dont want the cure for ( Read more... )

all i got to say is now the puzzle pieces seem to fit....

hmmm lately ive been feeling better, as in better mood. certian things dont bug me as much as they use to and ive realized what i have now. I think im about rdy to move on. Although there are times when i feel neglected or used for some reason, or a lack of respect ( Read more... )

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

sigh. ive finally realzied things will never come back to me. ive lost what ive lost and i dont know if i will ever have it back. Im almost over this, i just have to figure a couple things out before i move on....FUCK! and its true this feels like a posion yet sometimes i just dont want to find the cure.