Hear Them Ring

[brianakinney]

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[brianakinney]

thanks maggie

[mi_nion]

I think I feel like Justin a little bit here. It breaks my heart to think that after all this time & all they have been though Brian still feels so insecure that he gives Justin a get out of jail free card. As nice as the gift may be it still says to be that Brian doesn't feel worthy and still expects Justin to leave him. Love tsunami!Justin. He's completely onto Brian and won't let him use pain management sex to distract him from saying what needs to be said.

As much as I miss Kim/Dom/Bob and the rest of the guys, I'm really enjying the back to basics B/J love.

Nice post Ran.

[brianakinney]

thanks A. I'm glad you feel that way. ANd yeah, I think Brian's old pains will always be with him

[damietta]

You write Brian so well. While Brian doesn't do material romance well, he certainly gives of himself (whether he recognizes that as "love" time will tell).

I'm glad Justin took the gift in the light he did...and called Mr. Kinney on his shit. And, continued to do so after the sex. LOL!

The "tall" comment was great by the way.

Deb

[brianakinney]

thanks deb.

[justintheartist]

Poor Brian, still such an emotional wreck. Good thing Justin's too stubborn to quit the field.

[brianakinney]

i think of him as emotionally scarred. I think he copes

[totallyfrelled]

It makes me laugh to see Brian consistently refer to Parker as 'that Parker' - I'm always being told that it's really easy to tell if I don't like someone, because I always put a "That" in front of their name, my mum always has too! No chance for subtlety I guess :o)

Much as I find it sad that Brian is still so insecure, it is a very big part of what makes Brian Brian. That kind of fear and insecurity runs deep and is threaded through the very fiber of all that he is. It took years for him to become this person, and, however much even he wants to change, it will take years, even with the knowledge that Justin does truly love him, for that thread to gradually dissolve a little and become less controlling in his nature.

Beautifully done, thoroughly admired Justin's perseverance! Hell, I don't think I could have remembered what I wanted to say even after just reading the description! :)
Thanks!
Totally Frelled.

[brianakinney]

Yeah, I think brian is brian partly because of the pain. I also think he does have faith in J but he has to keep reminding himself that he's worthy of that love