it seems these days i'm being reminded about who true friends really are and who they could be. beingn seperated changes dynamics so much and it takes such an effort. not that i think people don't like me or rude or anything. or just busy...it's just seeing how every thing plays out. kinda like interpersonal comm is everywhere. hahahaha or not. but ( Read more... )

my body's tired. my brain is tired. my heart is tired. sleep it is. home friday. my heart needs all it can. it's going to be a test of it ( Read more... )

you were almost kind
you were almost true
don't let me see that other side of you
you have learned in time
that you must be cruel
i'll have to wait to get the best of you
poison in everything you say
don't you
don't you
wonder what difference does it make
either way
----guster----

finally....i can breathe easier for a moment....at least when i relive it. i'm a dork, but i'm okay with it.

i'm back at school. and i'm hot and tired. and questioning soccer. again. i did this last year. i just don't know. i'm scared to quit. do i just like the status? there's people i really care about...but they would still be my close friends...right? i wonder if i just get tired...and the only way to get out of what i'm doing is to quit ( Read more... )

i've just enjoyed a two day break from camp. it seemed long in the grand scheme of things ( Read more... )

i spent the 4th at jen's cabin. BRILLIANT idea! i am now soo relaxed! two days of reading and listening to music. not to mention excellent food. but yesterday i spent most of the day reading on the dock. there was a significant breeze so i didn't realize how hot it actually was. the result was a red, lobster like bri. hopefully i'll do some good ( Read more... )

this last week drained me ( Read more... )

i'm a dork....but in the best possible way...what conversation happened tonight well defintley help me get throught the next 12 days of camp. oh man.. who knew. defintely not me. weeeeee...that's all i can say! and a prayer that i survive camp :-P

on a break at home from camp...intense week of traing. so much loaded into my head, i really hope i can retrieve it all out again...that will be the test. but i'm exhausted so that's where this ends!