Today made me realize that no matter what I do I am never going to be good enough.  I always try to make people feel better about themselves but then get slapped in face with basic same response "aww thank you but you are no _________.  I miss ________ so much" ... in one day to be told this by 6 different people makes me want to scream "WTF!! Why ( Read more... )

What a week.  I had another psosa compartment block on Wednesday and what a day that was... I don't know why but I ended up having a bad reaction if you want to call it that to this one.. I do remember everything about this one compared to the one I had in June.  I did ask for some more numbing medication because halfway through the procedure I ( Read more... )

going to restart posting to Live Journal and keeping track of my thoughts and feelings and other things

Well the news came down last night -- Tiffy is pregnant. I am happy, scared, excited, so many emotions running through my mind and heart. I know this baby is going to be a beautiful baby that is going to be loved by so many. I told Tiffy and I mean from the bottom of my heart I will love her the same if not more and I will be with her every step ( Read more... )

I am back. I thought I would finally update this since it has been a while and I am doing exactly what I was hoping not to do ( Read more... )

I created this journal to keep a record of my thoughts, dreams, events of my life for the ones I care about to read ( Read more... )