fuck.

there is never a happy ending.

who takes care of me?

wow. long time no write. today i had a very rough tournament. volleyball has become a very largetask for me lately. its no longer about hitting the ball in the deep angle or setting and getting reps its now about my outlook on life and positive attitudes and when did volleyball have to do with my beliefs in the universe ( Read more... )

dont worry, i will never be happy, your compliments, yourlove will do me no good. i am heartless, a mere fool who has been played as has you. we are stripped of our sanctity as seconds stretch through time. we are all dying and everyone watches.

i hate boys and the way the have the right to fuck with me just because im a stupid girl. well fuck you and your penis. nwhat about that extra five or so inches of skin and cartilage and whatever else is in there that makes you superior to me. fuck you penis! you dont do it intentionally though. your owner will never see straight becuase the will ( Read more... )

i hate this place i gotta get outta here. i need to get as far from this fucking place as i can. maxime has offered to take me traveling this summer. i really want to go i wish he could just take me away now. I HATE HOW I RESPECT PEOPLE EVEN WHEN I KNOW THEY DONT DESERVE IT.... FUCK CHELSEY LEBEL ( Read more... )

i can close my eyes and for one moment the world ceases to exist and its me and my music and i'm singing at the top of my lungs almost screaming like something importants about to come out, like theres something i really have to say, and i've forgotten about hurt, and stress, and im soarin gpowered by my voice. and then i am jolted back into ( Read more... )

i am an awful person. and i cant help it. i suppose its because thats who i am ( Read more... )

i would pick flowers for you to smell
i would walk miles for you
i would break habits for you
laugh at stupid jokes
swim across the ocean
help with homework
i would do anything for you
but i would never compromise myself for you

i am strong and i will not settle for anything less.

im so tired. rehearsal has been so tedious and awful lately. im really enjoying it though. i've met a boy.. and being fickle. as always.

help... i have no emotion
i am drained
i have no energy
and no motivation
my life consists of reciting lines
and slapping a smile on my face that hasnt been natural since 2001
help. i have no emotion

jacob, my porn name is devin sweets.

maxime is whining about nothing. it is totally legitimate things to listen to bu ti am so tired i cant hear...

aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!