my parents are irking me
time is irking me
my german is irking me
my outward appearance is irking me
the weather will soon be irking me
the way i've been straying from the Lord is irking me.

right now, my life in general is just plain irking me.

i wish he didn't live over 5,000 miles away. we held hands a couple more times this evening. he's so amazingly attractive. and it's not that it's at all a lust-full attraction. i just picture this beautiful grassy hill in the summer time with a big oak tree at the top and we're sitting under it watching the sunset. very 50 First Dates-esque if you ( Read more... )

it might kill me emotionally to do so, but i've decided i'm going to go. it's all in the process of finally moving on.

i just sat in Borders Express for about an hour and a half with Teague, Fabian, and Lion and read PostSecret books. i am in love with postsecret. it's the best thing ever created. oh and i've recently developed an adoration for jeopardy that will be all ( Read more... )

by the way, i miss having young love as a mutual feeling. i hate longing for someone to want to be with me. that kind of sounds selfish, and i'm sorry that it does. it's just how i feel, i guess. i'm sure everyone has or does feel like this at some point(s) in their life. i miss feeling so close to God. i'm sick inside. sometimes i wish it would ( Read more... )

Yesterday after school I went to Bullwinkle's with several West kids and some of the German exchange students. It was quite fun, even considering I'm not close to any of the West kids that went. The only ones I really know know were Adam and Courtney and kind of Jen from playing lacrosse with her. But despite that, it was such a fun time and all ( Read more... )

my problems should be shaking in their shoes with all the meds i'm on as of today. including any threat of contracting HPV, since i got my second round of the HPV shot today. you know the commercial with all the females singing, "o-n-e l-e-s-s I wanna be one less! one less!"? yeah. that's what it is. i'm tired of my mom trying to relate to me all ( Read more... )

i like sunny days.
i hate math class.
i like feeling liked.
i hate when people say that they want a certain song played at their funeral.
i like playing music.
i hate high school.
i love being a teenager.
i hate growing up.

Idaho was an absolute blast. I don't feel like writing a novel about it, but I'll jot down some key points to remember later on ( Read more... )

i went to the coffeehouse for the first time in quite some time today just real quickly to get a chai. someone was sitting in our spot. i miss him so much. it still hurts just as much as it did months ago. i just pray God will bring us together again. i hurt badly ( Read more... )