He thinks that....but I didn't know that he thought that....I took our conversation about that a totally different way....I mean what he thinks is news to me! I cant believe I got myself into another position like this....I'm totally not into this....this is way not cool....and I dont want to hurt him....but I dont want to have a relationship ( Read more... )

I am more confused than ever and I find myself wishing for someone who I could talk to about everything that is going. But I dont want to bare my soul to someone whos my age. I want a mentor someone whos old and wise and can help me find my way. But right now theres no one. And I am so afraid of repeating the past. I am this close to plopping ( Read more... )

I have a really bad sinking feeling in my stomach. Something is seriously wrong...but I dont know what. Something bad happened and its freaking me out. I dont know what happened but I know its not good. I just wish that this bad feeling would go away.

It's been 2 months. I love and miss you Allie.

Blah I hate it when I do entrys about me being all depressed and stuff...especially when I dont really feel comfortable with everyone knowing all of this but what the heck I'm going for it ( Read more... )

Well.  Over the weekend I have discovered a few things about myself....that I am not going to discuss in great detail on here....actually I'm not going to discuss any of it....mostly cuz I just dont feel like typing 10 pages.  But yah.  So I have been thinking a lot about Allie lately.  I wonder if I will ever go a day without thinking of her.  I ( Read more... )

So yah today has been a good day. First I bought 2 new cds and a cd case. I went driving around in my lovely car and didn't kill anyone....though there was a few close calls. Went to a movie with Grettle and Amanda came home to find the house abandoned. The family and Chica's friend Hannah came back at like 9:30 or something. I took Hannah ( Read more... )

I wanted chocolate real bad...and lots of it...so I made brownies and ate some of the mix...cept I forgot that it had raw eggs in it. And now I feel sick. And I think I burnt the brownies ( Read more... )

Rescue Me by Krystal Meyers ( Read more... )

I

Dont

Want

To

Feel

This

Way

Anymore

I

Cant

Take

This

Much

Longer

It

Is

All

My

Fault

I

Make

Myself

Sick

I

Hate

This

I

Dont

Know

What

To

Do

These

Feelings

That

I

Cant

Ignore

Are

Taking

Over

My

Life