i was looking at my really old livejoural and xanga postings

and well.. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME DAMN IT!

i used to bve so fucking happy

and do sooo many things

and now... nothing

im so disappointed in myself

i feel likei have failed

i want my old fucking life back and i want it now!

I'm really unhappy

and i really fucking hate andrew

even in the end he manages to stab me in the fucking back.... FUCK HIM.

SO umm i dont even know if any of you even read this anymore but uhh yea ( Read more... )

i havent wrote here in forever

then again i never really talk about how i feel anymore... how i really really feel inside.. but its not pretty infact it scares me

So i think me and andrew are like actually done.. and its really depressing me cuz i love him and he really really hurt my feelings... i kno hes an asshole

and i should throw him away but its  sooo fucking harddd

but i can tell he just doesn;t care

i wanna like cry myself to sleep

i dunno what to do anymore

I dunno where to start ( Read more... )

ok.. so maybe ppl that are 4 yrs older don't suck.. well one of them atleast... i <3 dates with punk boyz :-)

their so cute with their stupid ideas lol.

anyways

Yeah i spent $10 on deoderant.. i feel ripped offbut i don't smell

yay clinical.. haha

i need to stay awake till fucking 4:30 am.... becuz my parents have no alarm clock.. fuckerr

ALEXIS ARE WE ( Read more... )

ok so i'm like pretty pissed off right now  i aint gonna lie. were gonna make a nice lil list :-)

Why I Hate the Human raceJudgemental IgnorantSelf centered Assholes         

• My family is really fucking annoying...They Fucked up my school shit for college and they keep taking my fucking  MONEY! and i'm FUCKING SICK AND FUCKCING TIRED OF IT I AINT ( Read more... )

I applied at Walmart like 2 weeks ago and well i didn;t think they would call back ccuz well a million ppl probally apply there. but there did and i had an interview today which sucked. i couldn't sleep well last night cuz it was so fucking hot in my room and house. so i woke up like 3 times and then finally at like 5:40 i gave up and just stayed ( Read more... )

Ok so, this week is gonna really suck and be boring, i can sense it already... and it kinda pisses me off ( Read more... )