i killed dannys fish. i cleaned his bowl last night after work and it all went down hill from there. we gave him a funeral this morning, the old flush. i made sure Kansas "Dust In the Wind" was playing on the stereo.

I'm sorry. i let you down, Faggy.

i find myself scanning my skin every morning for any signs of stretch marks. i really dont want stretch marks. i reallllllllllllllllly dont want stretch marks ( Read more... )

what is it with boys and disloyalty. and why do girls always have to impede on boyfriends. my heart is breaking.

its 12:03am (barely) friday night. i drove to daytona tonight right after work to meet a friend at the autumn offering cd release show. she never called me. i went alone. but it was ok, because kate was there. and my best friend from high school, anna. and shes 5 months pregnant. (i'm 6) so that was cool. and i saw a lot of people i have not seen ( Read more... )

i've found some peace in stoicism. this is what the universe has given me and i need to be happy with it ( Read more... )

and the hardest thing about all of this is how much i miss kara. if theres one thing in the world that can make me sob at the drop of a dime its the thought of kara. she is the best friend i have ever had in my entire life. now there is so much actual and emotional distance between us that i know things will never be the same again. i was a free ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of the music they play on the weather channel. yet this is the only channel i end up watching after flipping through the rest ( Read more... )

this whole thing really makes me nautious. i think this is my last entry ever. so. farewell.

happy 23rd birthday danny.

last night i went to sleep wishing i'd never wake up. i was suppose to meet my aunt and cousin in sanford today but i called and told them i was too sick to drive. complete lie ( Read more... )

so. it seems as though my once faithful friends have fucked me over yet again. no bills were payed while i was out of the country leaving ME with appx. $400 in FPL and utility bills. love how my roomates really step in and help me out. dont worry guys, i'm practically MADE of money seeing as how my dad has cut me off financially and all. but dont ( Read more... )