life sucks

[britishbandgirl]

so this is probably the scariest thing i've had to go through well..with the exception of when carol's dad was sick....but now i am officially alone...i was doing things that i should not have been doing..sleeping with an ex about two or three times a week...it was wrong and i know it...but i miss him and it's comfortable...anyways, there are

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[codenameal]

I realise I'm not a really good guy friend, but I'm here to listen if you need to talk.

[platonic]

Hey Monica. I know I'm really out of touch and we haven't talked in a few years... I know what works for one person won't always work for another person since everybody's different...

Find things that make YOU happy. You're a neat person! You don't need to define yourself off another person. Having to be "with" someone isn't a good way to define personal happiness. I know for me I had to finally say "Fuck you all. I need to find things that make ME happy." I know it also helps to have someone to just be close to but sometimes that isn't an option. :(

I hope things go better for you in Tulsa. You are a fantastic person. People should be honored to be around YOU. You're so nice and sweet and yes sometimes bitchy but what's the sweet without the sour, eh? LOL! Better to be a part-time bitch than a full-time one. ^_~

Maybe what I've said here won't help you in any way... But maybe knowing that I cared enough to try to say something will help a little. I'm not a guy but my icon has Ben Affleck in it! :D

[platonic]

P.S. -Leesa (in case you forgot)(I know I forgot) lol

i know who you are silly....

[britishbandgirl]

thank you so much for your input...it does mean a lot to me that you would say something after all this time...
i always wanted to get a hold of you but didn't have your number an d so i would go to walmart at night but i eventually figured out that you were no longer working there. i hope things are well with you...i'm trying to make myself happy. i think that once i move back to tulsa where he has no means of getting to me it will be a lot easier for me...i just need to be alone for a while.
well, i have to hurry and got to lab. but i'll write more tommorrow.

-m