Ok, you want to know what I'm thinking, I'll let you know what I'm thinking. I feel like everything I do or say is a mistake, and so I stop doing and saying things, which is always just another mistake. Sometimes I feel like I'm competing with a memory and I'm just not going to win. People are watching me, just waiting for me to mess up so they can ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder what exactly the point of my being here is.

I went for a really, really long run this morning. I made it all the way to some random park that I've never been to, but it was quite nice. There was a large lake in the middle, kids were playing in it with boats, and there were some people fishing. I was a little warm, so I took my sneakers off and just... jumped into the water! It was fun. ( Read more... )

I'm bored and having a lovely chat with Fred. I'd just like to be all sappy here for a moment and say- Thank you, Fred! You make me feel beautiful! hahahha Thanks for saving me from my boredom though, really... You're so SWEET! :p ( Read more... )

Who wants to see THE cutest thing ever?

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Well!! I had planned on updating earlier but found myself otherwise occupied... NOT watching tv, thank you. While Ryan was out, I cleaned the house! Vacuumed, dusted, cleaned the bathroom. Anyway, I woke up with minimal head pain, as I took an aspirin with orange juice before I went to bed last night ( Read more... )

Blah. That's all I can say, really. That's how I feel, how I am, how I act, how I look. I guess I'm probably the one that changed. I don't know how, and I don't know when it happened, but I'd like to rewind to that point and slap myself before it does. I got out my little ring from the bubble gum machine today. I'd put it away because I didn't want ( Read more... )

How rude. I miss ALL the parties around here. As a result, I'm never going to work again and I'm going out dancing and drinking tonight. Anyone with me? Thank you and goodbye!

In the mourning I can see the sights
No wonder I could never keep you satisfied
In the mourning I can see inside
Myself and all the things that you were trying to hide

So I'm sitting here watching another one of those strange SciFi movies. This one's called "They Crawl". It's about mutated cockroaches, I guess. I happened to look at the info about the movie and I see this name, Daniel Cosgrove, and I think 'Hmm.. that name looks familiar.' So I ran to my computer and looked in my journal and BAM. IT'S FRED! He's ( Read more... )

Oh yeah, and..

*dances around and sings* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! You look like a monkeeeey! And live in a zoo!:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR COOOOLTINNNN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

Edit. Your gifts are in the mail ( Read more... )