so, ive been totally creeped out all day. today i was getting ready to go to work so i had just got out of the shower and got halfway dressed (i always get ready without fully dressing to avoid getting makeup/hair all over my clothes) anyways...i was sitting on my bed putting on makeup and i got to the mascara part and i happened to glance out the ( Read more... )

 God, what I would give to be able to see my Mimi right now. For her to wrap her arms around me and tell me everything is going to be ok

i miss her terribly.

 GOSH DANG IT....I NEED A BREAK ( Read more... )

 ok, heres an update on this crazy life ( Read more... )

woop!! im LOVING U-Dub! fo shizzle! its so exciting there. i dont like having to get up with the rooster but i like how it makes my day longer....even though i come straight home for a nap. hahaha! anywho, classes are going to be EXTREMELY HARD. like woah. they aint playin. especially my accounting teacher....he's hardcore. i think thats going to ( Read more... )

so i realized today that life isnt as bad as it seems. there are people much worse off. but this has been a very life changing chapter in my life, these past few months that is. starting with loosing my rock. :(
its sooo weird, for about a week now, every dream ive had was about my mimi....no lie. just like she was still here, id wake up and the ( Read more... )

 geez....i wish all the pain would go away :(
i hate that im upset all the time....there is soooo many good things in my life to be thankful though. i just make myself sick to KNOW ive made a big mistake and there is nothing i can do to take it back. but i guess life is about taking risks....and i say i dont regret anything, but i really think i do ( Read more... )

 lifes crazy. bottom line ( Read more... )

 i have to be the stupidest girl on the planet.

what is wrong with me? why cant i just say no?
if you only knew.....

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching ( Read more... )

 whew, its been a while. ya miss me??? lol, i like updating lj cuz im not really sure if anyone reads it anymore so i dont feel as bad venting. not that im venting now....you never know ( Read more... )