I decided not to go to the memorial. I've cried a lot, and I don't want to cry any more. I feel like a horrible person. Am I?

Okay, I think I am over the shock that Chris is dead. He is still, and always will be in my heart, but I think I am getting used to him being...gone ( Read more... )

I've been doing so well today. I was able to laugh and think of Chris only in sadness without tears. I listened to Linda tell her sister of what happened, and I started to get upset, but I didn't cry. Then later, I was at Jess' and I was listening to messages, and it said I had an "urgent message". They gave information about his funeral date, ( Read more... )

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I had this loooong conversation with this other kid in Lycos about online relationships. And real relationships. We bared our souls--he's a stranger, mind you--and I dunno, after we talked, I feel like a new woman. Like a leaf was turned. I'm ready to go out there and find a real guy. I haven't had one, in, God. Ages! I'm going to go back to school ( Read more... )

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I had a pretty good time, we decided no dinner, just shopping instead. I was home by 6, then I went to the city to look at the "Towers of Lights" with my rents. If you don't know what they are...deal? Lol I got back around 10:00. All we did was drive back and forth. Plus, they wanted to look at a house in Bay Ridge...all Arabs ( Read more... )

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