i don't know what to do about anything anymore.
i'm so bored.
and tired of being alone all the time.
even when i'm around other people, i still feel so alone.
i mean, sure, i have fun, but the minute i come home and i'm alone, i start going nuts.
i can't stand it anymore.

fuck this shit.

i had such a crappy day at school today ( Read more... )

life that is. everything is shooting at me from all sides and i just can't deal. i don't know why. i really don't. i feel like i'm not good enough for anyone, and it has nothing to do with the way i look. i am completely comfortable with that now. granted, it took some time, but the way i look at it is, i'm fine with my imperfections..sure, i ( Read more... )

as i sit here, i think of how much things have changed. some have changed for the best, others have changed for the worst. this morning at church, i was holding gavin, and thinking about how fast he's growing up and how i can remember the first time i saw him like it was yesterday. i can remember him being born and being a newborn baby that ( Read more... )

Top 10 things that make you happy right now, and tag 5 people to do the same ( Read more... )

hello all. it's been ages since my last update. so you all know, i now have a new cellular device. the number is (270) 469-8141

love all you guys.

Top 10 things that make you happy right now, and tag 5 people to do the same.

10 things..

1. God
2. my family.
3. Brandon
4. the best friends in the world.
5. my car.
6. California
7. Thanksgiving at the 5th Wheel.
8. Halloween.
9. the park.
10. Christmas at my granny's.

i tag:
shella
seville
josh
scott melson
zach denzer

Delilah Gonzales passed away a couple of hours ago. She is the third student in less than a year from my school that has died. The third. I don't even know what to say. I would love to say that we were friends and we had great times together, but we didn't. I simply knew her smiling face, and all the good things she had to say, and how she had ( Read more... )

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