to love and be loved back

equally

or even close to it

by the ones you want to love (at least the ones of the opposite sex)

and the ones you want to love you back

we'll see how things work out
i'm not sure what to think
i just to take life a day at a time an hour at a time a minute at a time

someone should just give me some money. like $10,000. that i don't have to pay back. that way my student loans and my credit cards and my bills are paid off. fuck this roommate shit. if i'd known she wasn't going to pay shit, i would've just told her to not worry about it and stayed in my apartment. in the long run i would've saved money. i ( Read more... )

so the roommate is moving out. it's a long story that i am way too tired to explain right now. i got 2 hours of sleep and slept in a vocal booth in my "friend's" studio. went to sleep around 10 and woke up at lunch time. he's going to sleep here for the first time and i am pretty fucking excited about it. fuck yeah

things that feel real real good ( Read more... )

i'm a horrible person. i hate having a roommate but i don't think it's because i hate having a roommate. i think it's because i hate having a roommate who can't pay the bills, whose shit is everyfucking where in my room. who doesn't clean yet has all the fucking time in the world to do so. who, when i come home in the afternoon to shower, is ( Read more... )

it never ceases to surprise me
sunflower bark
cake fights with chocolate icing covered clothes
jack daniels t-shirt
shaking legs
movies with commentaries on
late night homemade gourmet
poker
pool
spoons
taking things one day at a time while realizing the future could change things drastically very soon

i have been hanging out with a boy. actually a 31 year old guy. i don't know if it will go anywhere but right now it feels good. we laugh and giggle and relax and do it and it's nicer than i ever thought it would be.

like i have negative money
and not enough money to pay all of my bills
i can't spend any money at all this week
at all at all
god

it's not really all it's cracked up to be. at the moment, i have -2.35 in my account and one maxed out credit card. mostly, this is all my fault for going out and getting drinks too often and never eating at home. when i was domesticated, i was so good at managing money and paying bills on time. right now, i have a few bills that are late and ( Read more... )