wow. that certainly is a reality check.

have you ever been so lonely that you feel like you just can't take it anymore? even in a room of friends, you feel disconnected. when the memories aren't enough, you can't stand the solitude any longer and imagining a hand to hold only makes its absence that much more unbearable. you spend nights latching onto any of your most recent contacts ( Read more... )

if i could just get someone to hold me for a little while, until i fall asleep, i think it would be a lot easier to deal with everything that has happened in the past few days, and the past few years, for that matter.

got a new car. it's super nice. who wants a ride?

you all should come and say your final goodbyes to the neon. it's gonna be gone forever. had some good times in that car... even if it is a piece of junk.

i really do love fall. i am so excited that it it is finally starting to cool down and the crazy intense humidity all the time is over with. driving home from work and watching the sunset, and feeling the wind blow through my windows, i really didn't even mind all the sitting in traffic, or the people pulling out in front of me. i was too busy ( Read more... )

why why why why why

oh, won't someone just please tell me why?

so many things i just don't understand. so many things i wish i could change. so many things i am absolutely powerless over.

i like to be in control. or at least have some sort of input.

that's it.

it's amazing how cartoons can just make you forget all about people passed out in your living room. the past few days i've trying my best to relive my childhood through old tv shows, after i discovered that our old beta vcr still works and our vast collection of beta tapes, which i had completely forgotten about. it makes me want to sit around in ( Read more... )

i think that perhaps after years of suppression of these feelings, they've finally surfaced, and it is honestly more than i can bear at the moment ( Read more... )

a dance party with the girls at 2 am was just what i needed after how horrible (and i do mean horrible) the past couple days have been.

i <3 my girls sooooooo much. too bad some of 'em gotsta be leaving me.

here's to being broken hearted, and feeling lonely and pathetic, and never being able to sleep any more. woot.

the sun will come out tomorrow. i'm crossing my fingers and closing my eyes.