Im done with him, and I dont really care. That's how I know its really time. Im not wasting my time or gas on him, especially when I KNOW he only wants one thing. I always allow myself to be used like this. I hate it, and the worst part is i know its happening, and I let it. I hate myself for that. I am trying though.

Serious relationships are ( Read more... )

i think im safe to post stuff here, b/c nobody reads this anyway. how did stuff go so so horribly wrong. how did i get shafted!? i got walked over. i got left with NOTHING. and they got it all. it fucking sucks that every person i counted on turned theyr fucking backs on me. even worse some stabbed me in the back. and others just left. walked out, ( Read more... )

Goodness a lot has happened lately...

starting with the Senior Trip...which was awesome. and a lot of fun. but it did disjoint our already disjointed class...it was sooo cliquey...yuck. but it was fun nonetheless, i had the bestest time with my bestest girl friends...

next is spring break...which is almost over!?? for some reason, though im almost ( Read more... )

Ok

Life has pretty much SUCKED for the most part lately...why? i have NO CLUE. well one would have to be school, i am SO DONE. as much as next year and starting over scares me, i am SO PSYCHED. starting OVER, new place, new people, new school. dont get me wrong, i love my friends and i will miss them tons, but bishop is boring, im ready for a new ( Read more... )

ok beach week is gay. i am gay. i was so stuck in being stubborn and doing what i wanted, that i realized it wasnt even really what i wanted. or what other people wanted. and i am upset at myself, and not quite to the point yet of forgiving myself or everybody else. i feel very alone in this. not even chris understands, he is usually who i go to. i ( Read more... )

ok so, life is just NOT goin my way lately...here are my problems

1. school
a. senioritis and lack of motivation
b. Mr. Hancock leaving and my AP bio grade
c. the people there
2. selfish people
3. lack of overall motivation for life
4. Chris gone at Model UN in D.C.

so yea, those are my issues right now ( Read more... )

i am SO PSYCHED. its gonna be a blast. but only if we all stay together. none of this girls in one house guys in another crap. we are all best friends. and this is going to be our LAST time to all hang out together. i am frickin staying in one house. plus im not paying $300 to help rent a condo that i will hardly ever be at. after hanging out all ( Read more... )

Tonight was SO MUCH FUN! i got to hang out with some of my old IHM buddies! we were best friends back in middle and elementary school and i hadnt seen them in YEARS. it was so awesome, just like old times! we were all completely comfortable with eachother, we sat at chilis for 4 hours talking! it was so fun...AND i might possibly have a room mate ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a crappy, crappy day. the crappiest i'd say. i just plain sucked. i was having a "girl" day, kind of moody about everything, couldn't seem to get out of my funk, and then i got a call from chris that made it even worse. he had had some bad news and was highly upset. i went up to the lake for a little bit to chill and think, where i ( Read more... )

Im sitting here at my desk at Creative Inferno in Memphis and i am BORED to tears. Winterim so far has been cool, and the whole idea behind it is great, but so far, it has just been extremelyyyy boringgggg...they just dont have enough for me to do. which i totally understand, i mean, i dont actually work here ha. but maybe it shouldnt be a whole ( Read more... )