well nothin has really been happening lately im waiting for taxes and im getting closer and closer everyday to paying my shit off and getting a car. i was in the pet shop last night and i had a flash forward in my life. when she (the baby) is 3 i want to get her a puppy i know is soon to start but i figure by that time things in life will be better ( Read more... )

it seems that i have a problem. instead of being happy for people who have good things in THEIR lives i get JELOUS. im sorry if i hurt you by doing this i dont want to be mean and hateful but it just comes easy right now. it seems to me its better to hate and hurt than to get hurt myself. im workin on it i think i cought the problem befor it ( Read more... )

well its the end of another month and i have yet to pay off any bills!!!. its really depressing getting w-2s back and seeing how much youve made the past year and how much you actually have. this job i have was fun at first but its really not working out. i need a job were i can sit on my ass in a stress-free atmosphere and answer phones! i will ( Read more... )

heres a song my bro showed me and i feel instantly in love with it once you read the words you can see why. the only differance is istead of being gone cause of a job hes missing cause of no job the man i feel in love with is missing a new one replaced him ( Read more... )

im happy i found out i didnt want to at first but then i changed my mind. its rough trying to pick a name out. so i figured i would narrow it down to at least one sex. we all know how long it takes me to make up my mind. is sooo happy well i would have been happy either way. the baby is healthy and everything with us is good. as for the "sperm ( Read more... )

lifes not much better. bills are getting paid though. thats good and the baby is healthy and we find out the sex on wednesday the 11th!!! although i wont know til the shower. im not sure what i want im just happy the baby is ok concidering all my mistakes. i pulled my back last week which sucks cause i got no drugs for the pain. its getting better ( Read more... )

december 31 2005 the baby kicked!!! it was a great feeling !! i loved it it was like the babys big bang befor the new year. i then fell asleep and had a great night what a way to end the year!!!!

life is ok right now. but i thought i would drop a note. there is so much i miss but at the same time so much i dont miss. it sucks not having a car cause your at the mercy of everyone else. i dont go out cause i feel bad making people pick me up. not that anyone calls me to chill. my family has adjusted to me being pregnant and its helping thisng ( Read more... )

my boobs hurt! my tummy is bloated and i think im constapated. and its only the begining. oh ye and i need a shower my hair is greasy and has dreads!. well im off ot bed and a brownie. then i work i the am! wish me luck

so another day another complaint. i ahvent written in a while cause i think some people abuse this site. i mean only friends have this and i thought you know if they are friends they wont reveal what is written. and i will admite i ahve done that from time to time and when it was done to me i relised how much it hurt that i couldnt trust friends so ( Read more... )