Man, it feels so done right now. like Im trying so hard to keep to my promise I made to myself after Karen died of not being so judgemental, but it seems as though Im picking and choosing too much with that. I feel like Ive lost myself & others so much lately, Im just so caught up in my thoughts. I keep thinking about how much I need to go to a ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was at the cemetary, and I noticed the "couple's headstones" ya know the husband wife ones. I started thinking about like what it would be like to have your husband die, and to take care of his grave. as if there wasnt enough irony in that, but knowing that you are standing over where your own body will be laid to rest. as if ( Read more... )

yeah, I got home from a fun time at wal*mart, all seemed right, I saw very cute boys, and cute boys in Armor for Sleep & Rufio shirts... which you DONT see in Safford AT all, like nobody knows who they are really, and everyone is becoming trendy with tote bags, and I felt nerr about all that. and then I went home, and my sister's brothers were ( Read more... )

haha, I FINNALLY got around to writting in here again about my simplistic yet utterly confusing life. I realize I only write in here when Im upset, and I NEED to change that. I have my issues, and most of which you know about, I complain all the time on here. I've faced the reality that some things including myself NEVER change like they should ( Read more... )

Yeah today was a normal day that went pretty good inspite of the bad parts. but my mom & I went to the health food store & I scored vegetarian style. we started talking about my uncle's suicide last year. thats always been a rough topic for me. it was almost a year ago today, and I never really stop thinking about it. I get the chills & feel sick ( Read more... )

what a life we all live. lastnight it felt good, the smell of rain, and a nice blank canvas. I've been so consumed in my art since I got home, that its hard to get back on track with school work. Its my own fault for anything that goes wrong. & so much has been. Im not complaining, Ill say that much. Its hard to describe what Im feeling. Its like a ( Read more... )

Lately Ive thought a lot about the past, and how much has changed, and how much hasnt. i look at who i am, and who everyone has become & how life has changed for everyone, and i wonder if id be proud or dissapointed in who i am. im not living for the past, im just reliving it for a short time. t.j. looked sooo sexy tonight & lastnight, and when hed ( Read more... )

Well... today was opening night of my play, it was pretty cool, had a full house. but I dunno, I was thinking about how easy acting is, & how quickly I can get into charactor, & I wonder if maybe we're all playing a role in life, maybe thats why its so easy to act on stage. after the play was over, my parents didnt wanna stay for the after party ( Read more... )

"dear katrina, I hope you have fun & enjoy christmas. I know a few things I probably shouldnt. Anywats, to clarify somthings. 1.) I have no intrest in you. Youre a friend. Im sorry if Ive been putting you on. I dont think that there can be a chance in heaven or in hell. youre a friend. sincerely Tony ( Read more... )

Hey kids, its me again, who else? well I need to get working on duct tape again, its been awhile, & Im so booked with orders, but whateva, bussiness is booming, why complain? Id have to say that this year is the worst year, if not ever, then in a long time, & I think its been that way for a lot of people. Maybe not even bad persay, but a year of ( Read more... )