i finally have time to write about my weekend ( Read more... )

so i've come to the realization [once again] that i am still completely in love with 'him'. i don't even think he knows how often i think about him. or how much i cry because i know that there will never be an 'us' again. since we broke up i have had nothing but bad boyfriends. ones who cheat on me or play me or are just plain bad boyfriends. i'm ( Read more... )

omgg wow
i had a thanksgiving last night
and i am going to have one today with other family
and then one tomorrow with more family
ah crazy :S

i am in such a good mood today
and it's really weird
because i have every reason to be in the worst mood ever
but for some reason i'm not
hm

this weekend
i cant wait
:)

friday:
battle of the bands
sleepover with the girls

saturday:
day at the lake with my favorite ppl
thennnnnnnn
GOING TO SEE UNDEROATH AND THRICE
:) :)

yay im so excited
my birthday is in a month
my sweet 16 is going to be the best
& that is a fact
im not going to let anything ruin it
:) :) :)

im getting sick
i hate it
im losing my voice
ergghh

nervous nervous nervous

i have to talk to my mom tonight

i have to tell her about all my problems i've been hiding

:(

so me and my family went out to lunch today
we had chinese food
we got a fortune that said...

"don't kiss an elephant on the lips today"

WTF???

sean.. is amazing.

he makes me feel like i did when i was with greg
like everything is right
and nothing bad can happen

no other guy has made me feel like that since greg
(even though i've had 3 boyfriends since greg)

i'll wait til he's ready
i'll wait for him
<3

it's official
he really is leaving
next thursday

he will be gone til after he graduates
i cried my eyes out at lunch today
i'm gonna miss him more than anything