When I have days like this...I WANT YOU THERE....but you arent..you never are....and it fucking BREAKS MY HEART!.

Its ridiculous how much i miss you.....Slowly and slowly im starting to realize that I dont have anyone..I dont have anyone I can call in the middle of the night and cry....and I dont have someone i can plan to visit over any vacations...im just working all the fucking time and thats my only friend...the money I make I guess..I can't even find a ( Read more... )

I dont think i even understand whats going on in MY OWN LIFE NOW........

so. Dont expect anything from me..k?

Cause I can't expect anything from anyone anyways. And when I'm let down...I let others down.

I wonder how many times you have to wish on 11:11 before you actually get your wish or if that really even works

Change can be a good thing or a bad thing...im not really sure what it is right now...

I'm happy? content....anything but miserbal...i dont want to be that anymore...

And I love rachel to the moon and back <333

Last time I checked....you werent ANY better then I was...

Only now...im more honest then you will EVER be.....

Thanks for trying to make me out to be the BAD person....

The Helper (the Two ( Read more... )

I always pick the stupid boys that hurt me....

and im tired or hurting.:(

Maybe its different for girls then it is for guys... for me...sex is something big that you only do with people you really care about...not something that i can just throw around and not expect anything back. I dont know but when you are in a situation with someone that you like and they want to have sex with you really bad and you just give in ( Read more... )

So what do you do when your whole world is kind of falling away from you?

When your best friends friends arent anywhere near you or you feel like you have none...

Your stuck sitting in computer dorm room crying because you know nothing that is going on....

This last weekend has been spent with some old friends and it was lovely..it was nice to see them again... :) now I get to go back to school and see my best friends :)

::runs back and forth excited::