Im feeling like i should just say that im not in a x-mas mood, i dis like my job, i hate bills, and if things continue this way i may want to just get up and go. I dont know were id go but simply put i just dont want to be bogged down. All that aside i hate my job, loath is more appopriate. I want to do something with a meaning. i had set a dead ( Read more... )

ok so heres the deal, I have been informed by j&j as to larp stuff, and my last post was not intended to be mean or spiteful, it was just stating that online info s*cks monkey dong as far as staying in contact is concerned. And I will admit that i have been trying to poke my nose around in peoples bissness, its done only cause i care. uhhh what ( Read more... )

ok so trying to talk to people online, or pleading with them to keep me informed doesnt work. So rather then trying to listen to peoples problems and trying to be a good friend, ill just stop asking and sit here on my @ss it doesnt make any difference to me. Other then that im ok, trying a day by day stratagy and have a fix, Dragon Quest, fun and ( Read more... )

ok so heres some updates. ok heres the deal i've got some stuff on the horizon, first off i want to move out or go back to college. This is because i cant stand living here, its like my own private hell. I toil at a job i dont actually love i wake every morning to barking dogs and when i stop to listen to the people around me i imagine beating my ( Read more... )

so im in a good mood, despite being home with moronic dogs. Im watching a show on leonardo de Vinci. Damn i need to be more like him. Maybe ill get him biography and try and modle some stuff after him. I want to make something of my life, i really want to either become something that is truely special to the world or something that causes a mark in ( Read more... )

So my 'date' was ok, She didnt want a relationship. I know because I asked if she thought it was a date. Honestly Im not disapionted, it just means i have another friend here. I guess today wasnt that bad, jon called, that was nice, I am going to henniker next friday and saturday and will help run a larp, if jon and everyone else is good with that ( Read more... )

as I see it at the moment my life is sort of loosing momentum. I want to go forwords but their are some small problems. So as a means to open this up to more then myself and the closed minds around my house (who already think im doing great) I want to post my problems here. If you have any suggestions please post a solution ( Read more... )

so, yeah im back again for what is probably the most consecutive journal to date, but first 1 sec... We're clear to go. like the title sujjests people have people. I am one of the few among my friends who is still free to do as I please. Admittible i must say i have no one to share stuff with but I can live my private life alone and Ill be ok. = ) ( Read more... )

Ok so heres a truth that I have enountered lately, People who think they are 'dark' are basically just stuck in a bad place. Every one in the world, as it is, has a sense of duality. A person who doesnt have a darker side is fake just as a person who doesnt have a light side is fake. If someone beleives that they are darker then everyone else it is ( Read more... )

so here I go, First and formost my job is excellent, unforchunetly I work with a hot topic 3 something goth who seems to see me as the one bain in his 'perfect' 'i live with my father and have a fed up' perfect life. I work under a guy whos pretty cool, says im doing well but work slow, he has moments were he can be a tad annoying, thinks that the ( Read more... )