We caught a huge break yesterday. David and I. I might be getting a really awesome job and he got a job at a grocery store. I'm so happy that he can finally go and work,he has been so depressed and seeing his sad expression everytime I came home made me hurt inside. I'm looking at many forclosed homes in the Santa Clarita Valley because we can now ( Read more... )

I doubt you will ever find this, but if you do, please don't take it the wrong way. You have to understand my ( Read more... )

There has been so much drama at work. My assistant manager called me a white bitch then wrongfully terminated samm.

LAW SUIT MUCH?!

This happends to be easier then ever before. Indiference is part of my everyday norm to push him slightly to the left. I want to stop loving him, I want to stop feeling like I need him around. He got his apartment and now he can actually get rides to the clinic without me. It just feels as though I'm losing him, as though things are really ( Read more... )

Well he ended it again. For a second time? I guess we just weren't meant to be or something. Maybe we shouldn't be together. The only thing that I know is that this hurts. It hurts really really bad. I've been crying for the past two hours yet the gaping hole in my heart doesn't seem to go away.

mr.blue, i told you that i love you please believe ( Read more... )

Are fucking JOKES.
thats it.

David and I are back together. I don't really care if people think I'm insane. I love him, I love him so fucking much and I don't know if I could live with myself knowing that I just gave up on him even though he wanted a second chance. Everyone makes mistakes and I've already forgiven him for the most part. Not saying that I'm fine and dandy with ( Read more... )

Giving up hope. I know that inside I can't imagine how life would be like if I hadn't met him. I'm getting over the hardest part of it. He keeps me tied to him in a weird sense. He likes to do that. He plays mind tricks and yet I stick around. I know how much of an idiot am I and sometimes I wish I could wake up. Maybe me starting school will ( Read more... )

Want to fall apart. I want to cry and I just want someone to hold me and tell me its ok. I know that it probably won't happen, but my heart feels like it has a knife in it all of the time. I don't want to do anything but sleep, I want to sleep for a really long time.

I talked to him last night, and he said,"you should know that this break up will probably be very short lived I'm probably going to be back together with you, your not going to have to wait forever ( Read more... )