I’m surprised how well I’m taking this. I thought I’d be more shocked/sad, but I guess deep down I knew this was over a long time ago. And yes I’m a little bitter, not because it ended but...well read on ( Read more... )

you know how after you've been in a relationship for a while (especially if you live together) how things just start repeating. That you do the same thing every day. That there's nothing new to talk about because you spend every damn day with this person ( Read more... )

It has been a LONG time since I've posted on here and I figured since it's the start of a new year I might as well update ( Read more... )

if I wasnt worried about getting my blood everywhere.

I hate you

I've been drinking literally every day for quite some time now.

Is it a way to suppress how pointless everything I do is?
How plain I feel.
How tired I am.
How I just want to give it all up.

There are nights when I'd rather drive my car into a wall then have to do it all over again.

I am an idiot.

It's hard to act so non-chalant about it.
But thats what people expect from me.
I fell for him, hard.
And that was why it ended.
We got too close, and he was leaving.

I was able to avoid feeling like this for over two years.
I never let myself close to someone.
Till him.

I am an idiot.

I always tend to give up.

On everything and everyone.
I need to learn that if I really want something then it is worth fighting for.

I'm setting myself up to fall.

For once I am absolutly terrified of how I feel.
No sense of control.

I just hope he's worth it....

GREAT.

New job which is way fun.
New boyfriend who is wonderful
My car got hit on new years but I'll live.

So far so good.....

Me = Super happy

There's this boy.

Who I cant get enough of.