just wanted to write while i was stoned...i find it to be difficult.lol...going away now...

well its another day.i went to the doctor this morning...there gonna figure if i really need nerve pills or not.i ran into my ex-boyfriend finnaly.i ws kinda happy to see his dumbass.hes gonna smoke a jizzoint with me.i miss becka already.i also miss greg.he gets out of jail soon.i have these songs all stuck in my head from the new slipknot.it ( Read more... )

really i just wish i could find people more like me,who take it easy greasy.i want to be around people who are provoctive,eceryone sleeps around.i just wanna have fun..meet a chick/chicks,or aguy that are into new things.and we can both please each other ,physically and i suppose mentally.im not looking for a relationship.i just wanna have some ( Read more... )

well here i am again to bitch and complain about shit in my life ( Read more... )

yesterday was fucked up.i dont know about how people feel about thier parents you know.i guess it deppends on how they were raised and treated along the way.well im not ashamed to say i love my grandma more than life its self.she is the shit!and for the first time in my life and hers i believe as well,she talked of ways and considered suicide.she ( Read more... )

everything sucks ...my grandma rarely getts in this mood,shes deppressed and hatefull...she screams at me and treats me like shit.i woke up and left as soon as i could...im a burdon .soon i will find another way to deal,like maybe just going far away from her and every one else who seems not to give a fuck..im a burdon,im forgotten and this is what ( Read more... )

well so far todays been alright...i ran into and old friend shannon.my x best homies babies momma.we all used to be chummy 2-gether.she lives in galveston now of seawall.it was some what relieving to see her.im just waiting for days to go by.i really need a ciggarette.so far thats my day.talk shit fuckers..

well its been like a week ...so im here now to tell the tell of my days..to me it seems as if i stay still while the world spins around me a million times....my friend becka came to see me wednesday night i think...i was sooo happy to see her.someone,yet anyone...just to chill was great cuz i was with people..i was sad to see her go.her guy friend ( Read more... )

well its been a few days since ive been to this .i have a few things i would like to say.things were getting better.but i read some things and now im falling down again.shit sucks.my heart hurts and i wanna cry but i wont...i cant...to many side affects...i shall never give in to my feelings or give anyone a chance to get that far into my heart,i ( Read more... )

well heres my first entry.i had a horrible fucking night...i woke up early thinking about nothing in paticular.certain persons and her certain words lapped through my mind.theres really nothing i can do about it so ill just float on...i cant change the way somebody feels...if there gonna feel a certain way then thats how it is....im not gonna cry ( Read more... )