Ah, another night closing alone to reflect on my isolation from the world ( Read more... )

Why am I awake!!? GAHH!!!

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I'm such an idiot...I'm such a full-blown...worthless idiot...

Why do I try...why am I nice...I hate being me.

And here I am...waking up at 5 AM for no reason at all.....no use going back to sleep, my mind keeps racing.....I feel too hot then I feel too cold and now I'm dead tired, gotta go to work in 6 hours and I've had almost no sleep...what the hell is happening to me.

God, who the fuck AM I...?

I feel like screaming. Loudly. The only piece of my soul in tact is my storywriting...and I can't even write a page.

UGH SELF PITY WHY. I HATE THIS GODDAMN JOB and I have only been here an HOUR.

I love falling in love with songs...

I need to make this a theme song of one of my characters.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJLwnAC_R3Y

This almost sounds like a Zadiel song..

In a creative mood to write something about the Chameleon Drakes, probably could write an entire chronicle of what actually happened. It's all in my head, I know how it all plays out ( Read more... )

I need like a self kicking machine.

Growing up absolutely alone has been quite an interesting experience for me, I must say. I write this because once again, I am closing at work alone! I'm the ONLY person they trust that can run this desk by themselves, and you know why? Because I do EVERYTHING better alone ( Read more... )

I really need to find a book called "How to get out of a job without feeling 100% guilty"

...but I am afraid it'll involve arson.

-=Ryan