I...

Sometimes I wish...

that...

I never could speak.

For this, I would never have to be afraid of what to say, and no one would ever expect anything of me.

I wish that something would have befallen me to keep me where I should be, alone.

I don't know. I'm so afraid. I'm so afraid..

Ah, only one more day to work at this terrible terrible desk ( Read more... )

Just got back today, and I'm about to head to class so I'll make it quick ( Read more... )

Well. I'll be back on Tuesday I suppose.

Vacation time. Time to reflect, create, and just relax.

I got a lot to think about this time.

-=Ryan

Fooling around with my astro-calucations, and I discovered this ( Read more... )

I feel like a piece of my soul has been restored..

Or maybe it never left.

I think I just amazed myself today.

-=Ryan

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

Lessie.

Went to bed around 1 AM..?

...Woke up at 3 AM..

.......didn't get back to bed until 5.

.........and woke up at 9.

The hell is wrong with me. I haven't paid attention to anything my instructor has said all night...and I've only been here an hour. Ready to pass out..

-=Ryan

I had this big moody rant about how much I hate myself prepared to type right here, but after looking at my schedule of which I work all of my days off...and then having someone from engineering talk to me FOREVER and finally left..I figured how not worth it any of this is ( Read more... )

...Phew

Interesting emotional roller-coaster I've been on lately. Watch me go from deep despair to intense joy and back in like 10 minutes.

Fear to anxiety, then embarassment, relief, then ....I don't know.

Love to sadness then weakness then strength then ...well then I start all over.

I hope this will even out soon

-=Ryan

Thinking.

Thinking a lot.

...Am I going to be okay? ...Yes. I think I am.

...This song would make a good ending credits of the RP.

-=Ryan