~It's been nearly eight years since my last post on here. I have been slacking very much in attempting to keep up with my thoughts and what is going on in my life. However, recent turmoil has caused me to find a place to try and vent that isn't in my physical journal. I don't think I've written much in my physical journal since Katie was murdered. ( Read more... )

~Two days in a row after nearly a year being gone. Either I've got way too much time on my hands right now or this is just intriguing me enough. The reason for my online journal and even my travel journal isn't for others to read. It's for me to place my thoughts for future reference. Journaling seems to be a tool for me to keep track of what ( Read more... )

~It's been quiet some time, obviously, since my last post. While it gives me some pleasure to say that in the time between my last post and this, latest entry I have been able to maintain a physical journal. At least up until a few months ago. Naturally it is my intent to continue with my travel journal but it would also be nice to provide some ( Read more... )

~I'm settled in now for the most part. Starting to get into the best routine possible. Since life is extemely fluid here patterns are almost impossible to set. Beyond the difference in location it's pretty much the same as the last time I was here. Only this time it's a great deal more relaxed and set up. I hope that in the near future I'll be able ( Read more... )

~Time is slipping by. I go on my short vacation tomorrow. Me an Buzz are getting out of here as soon as we are released. His father is coming down to pick us up. Then it's off to have a few drinks with the retired TAG and wait for Sarah to fly in. Later on we are heading into Hilton Head Island to stay at the condo there. Don't really have any ( Read more... )

 ~I think I'm developing Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. My wrist is hurting, I get a shooting pain all the way up my arm and my fingers go numb on occasion. I've stopped writing anything that isn't terribly important becuase this seems to be what agravates everything. Unfortuanately this hasn't improved my mood in the slightest. Writing letters to friends ( Read more... )

 Dedication ( Read more... )

 ~I've become very combative since begining my tour. Actually since arriving here in Georgia. Seems that at almost every corner I can find a reason to argue with someone or see something in a different light. Even when a few minutes prior I could have been arguing that exact point. This is probably a manifistation of my enviroment. Just as my ( Read more... )

~I'm feeling really agressive right now. The sort that I want to go out and pick a fight. Currently not in the physical form, yet. More of the verbal what the fuck is going on kinda fight. One urge is to send a text or call Kristin in order to throw everything out in the open yet again. Probably with no fucking resolution yet again but do it ( Read more... )

I hold on so nervously
To me and my drink
I wish it was cooling me
But so far, has not been good
It’s been shitty
And I feel awkward, as I should
This club has got to be
The most pretentious thing
Since I thought you and me
Well I am imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you ( Read more... )