well i guess maybe it doesnt feel like home yet because none of my stuff is here. you ask me why im not helping you or why im just sitting here doing nothing. but its like well ive unpacked your stuff all day... and ive pretty much been in tears the entire time because i dont feel like any of this is mine... that its all of your stuff and im just ( Read more... )

So I guess I dnt know how to feel now tht you don't have for me anymore. I thought we had something special but I guess I was wrong because its like I dnt exsist to you anymore. I wish I could go back to curling up in ur arms and crawling onto lap and getting all comfy and cosy knowing tht I was all you needed. But I'm not anymore. I hate how I sit ( Read more... )

So I have to start going to work. I'm so broke and I'm prolly gonna be written up... but I have plenty of time to make up hrs this week because I don't have school Tuesday.. not like I ever rly go anyways... I'm getting really pissed off because I can't even post on my facebook without someone saying something to my mom. I'm about to start another ( Read more... )

if i didnt have to leave the dance studio wouldnt be doing half the stuff i do now. i would rather have stayed at a job that i hated.. dancing at night and being able to see my friends and watching little girls grow up. than being going back to school... working at a job that pays me well that i never go to.. and having to sacrifice the one thing ( Read more... )

seriously why cant i just be happy with life and eveyrthing that tends to happen. i answered my phone from rob today to hear the end of the conversation with his friend ben.. "yeah im raelly not interested in dating her..." yeah well fuck you too. after spending the last 40 days and nights with you i hear that. and then you think that im gonna come ( Read more... )

so i want to be rich. i want you and me to live in a house thats so big that there could be a whole other person living there and we wouldnt even know it. but i also want the simple life. i want a fairy tale. i want the fantasies in my head to come true i want you too know me so well that you can just look at me and know what im thinking.. just ( Read more... )

so im yet again lost in my choice of boys. dave has decided that he wants to let people in. he calls me a toy maker. "you've done it again, your like a toymaker. people give you their broken toys and you fix em, and play with em a little, but then you gotta give em back" so what the fuck is that supposed to me.. this is what he said in response "it ( Read more... )

i think that i can represent myself better as a person but ive been letting myself totally slip. i dont know what exactly is going on but i have been having break down anxiety attacks every time its time for me to go to school. i dont like it what so ever and even worse yet i dont know how to stop it. its really scary for me to just sit down and ( Read more... )

so ive really not been myself lately. im really not too sure whats going on but im doing things that i would not normally do that could really effect my life. so dave is sorta on the outs but im really not too sure if even he knows that. i dont want to burn any bridges i have issues with change because not every thing feels right right away. i know ( Read more... )

i never thought that i would one of those people. but the adrenaline rush that gets released soothes my anger.. and im not sure if its all in my head or what. and i used to be happy all the time and now i feel like i can never get to what i used to be. i mean i can put on a fake smile and get through the day without anyone asking questions but i ( Read more... )