good evening =) i'm in a rather good mood, mostly because today was a really pleasing day. i went to bed around 1, so i only got about 5 hours of sleep, but after i took my pill i was better. last night kind of opened my eyes, and showed me that my friends may seem like they're not being perfect sometimes, but then they make it up to me. and ( Read more... )

-yawn- i'm so tired. exhausted from school, and homework, and just running around everywhere. i was honestly expecting this day to just suck. i always get that feeling though, haha. it didn't exactly suck, but i was so sleepy all day until my pill kicked in at lunch. wes was being a dick somewhat, but that didn't bother me that much..decided ( Read more... )

i'm thinking venting makes me feel better..? so today pretty much sucked. to summarize: i'm at a point where everything is terrible. i'm not being dramatic, just honest. and then when i think things are getting better [see previous entries..] it all goes to hell again. i'm now doing things i never would have thought of doing...and yes they're ( Read more... )

what an eventful weekend, haha. on friday i went to the santa fe/north game instead of the party..which was probably for the best. i was really hoping wes would be there, since he said he would..lol but he never showed! fucker. i even wore his shirt haha. ended up hangin out with jake [traded shoes too, lol], ben, jonathan [hot!], kayla, ( Read more... )

OMG tonight was so much fun! we had our football game tonight because north and santa fe have theirs tomorrow. i went to chelsea's to ride with her and roxy, but when shylah got there mostly chilled with her. talked to TONS of people, goofed off, rolled down the grassy hill :p, etc. got to spend some quality time with wes =D so i was happy. ( Read more... )

i haven't been in a mood like this in a long time. my feelings are a mixture of sadness, rage, depression, hopelessness and every other bad feeling. what started out as a blow-off thing turned into a huge [or so it appears] thing. i feel as though my "friends" don't even know me or care about me. everytime i make a new friend, i push them away ( Read more... )

i don't even know why i have a xanga now, i don't ever use it lol. so this entry might sound somewhat happy, but of course i'm not. i never seem to be lately. this weekend was good, and then as soon as school starts everything goes downhill. maybe i'm being a little on the pessimistic side, but its fucking understandable. today was alright at ( Read more... )

such an amazing weekend, its hard to even put it into words. well friday night, memorial had their first game against santa fe. shylah and i really wanted to go, but of course we didn't. we lost anyway, haha. i just wanted to go for the socializing and plus lots of people wanted me to go =) got to the lake about 8:30ish and...took a walk ;) ( Read more... )

wow, i hardly ever have to time update, so feel special that i'm doing it now haha. this week has been surprisingly decent. it didn't begin that way, but i guess when you're at a point where it can't get much worse, it has to get better. of course nothing is perfect, and i still have my complaints, but i'm doing better than i was. i have to ( Read more... )

so this is my more personal journal and my xanga one is for school..er yeah. well since i haven't updated in a long time, i guess i'll give you a quick review. the first week of school basically sucked. the first couple of days were cool, then everything went downhill. the teachers started loading us with homework, quizzes, etc. just to make ( Read more... )