so last night as i realized it was 4 AM and i needed to sleep i thought about what happened in my past.. and usually whenever i think about it i tend to tear.. but this time i had nothing, no tears, no pain, nothing. its because i realized people have it harder than i do.. than i ever will.. why wallow when i could be helping someone else? kat and ( Read more... )

So I went to school today.. I sat next to this girl, her names Rachel. She was looking at me so when I looked back over I saw the artwork she's been working on. It's a drawing of her grandmother, it's the most amazing piece of artwork I have ever seen. I watched her take her pencil and bring the picture to life with a couple of strokes. When she ( Read more... )

my mom can fuck off.. and so can her boyfriend.. i hate them both. if either of them hit me again i'm moving in with chelsey. i had to walk allll the way to my grandparents house because my mom decided to smackk me for talking on the phone with Julie.. bitch (not Julie). i'm sick of taking everyones bullshit, i give the fuck up, i'm not getting ( Read more... )

ok.. yeahh.. well.. uhmm.. Luke and I hung out todayy.. thats it i guess.. i didnt talk to Kat or anything so my day suckkedd.. O! but i talked to Kelly so it wasnt ALLLL that badd.. i was hyper all day until i ran into the car outside ({(damn the dark!)}) .. LUKES MOVING MONDAY and i'm sad as fuckk.. *tear* my best friend.. well i still have ( Read more... )

I will always remember this day, November 12th 2004.. so much funn shit happened I cant write it down. Mondays gonna suck a$$ so I'm taking advantage of this weekend and having fun, whether it means getting in trouble or not.

I think more people should start calling me because I'm getting bored with the computer.. no one talks as much anymore. I ( Read more... )

I think Kat and I are good now.. I'm pretty sure we are.. after Luke came in she called and apologized.. even if it was my fault. I love Kat <333 ( Read more... )

k so.. i'm not gonna be signing on AIM for a little bit.. i cant take it anymore ( Read more... )

lukes gone... now that i think about it. he was my best friend.. i mean yeah.. for a month there we were at each other.. but 3 years.. i dont know.. i'm gonna kill lucien.. hes ruined everything i ever created good for myself.. except Kat.. i ruined that.. but thats beside the point right now.. if i'm here and he comes in my house.. theres no ( Read more... )

and i was having the best day ever too... why doesnt she see it the way i do?¿ how cant she? all i do is spill my heart and tell her how much i like her.. its not like i tell that to everybody cause i dont. *broken heart* i cant stand when we fight.. well.. when shes mad at me.. cause i'm not gonna fight with her.. i dont wanna lose her.. or ( Read more... )

i talkedd to Kelly tonight.. her and her bf are doingg better but she STILL loves me.. :( i wish i didnt love her before.. it hurts to get feelings back for someone you thought were gone. i dont love her, i just, i dont know.. too confusing...  i have feelings for Kat... i love Kat.. pshhhh you all knew it.. and i want Kat alot.. but god damn Kelly ( Read more... )