it's the new year, and i'll be sitting alone in my room, drowning out the cacaphony from below with a pair of headphones. i'm not anti-social, i'm just not feeling any vibe of celebration this year. why should a person celebrate when it's the new year, and nothing has changed for the better? i am now thinking that new year's resolutions would be a ( Read more... )

today in english class my teacher chose me to read the narrator part of "the miracle worker." the damned author had to describe hellen "fingering" some object i'm insure of and annie "cocking" her head. so yes, out of my own immaturity and perversion, i couldn't help myself. i sat there, laughing as everyone was real quiet and my teacher was ( Read more... )

today was the first day that i've ever went to new york city alone. i got on the train and walked about 20 blocks to meet my cousin. we had zen palate, went to some stores, saw the singer of my chemical romance, checked out some hot punk rock boys and went to starbucks. it was a really good time ( Read more... )

the night that i died was the night i realized that i have always been the most powerful person in my life. it was a night of autumn when i went for a walk to my own spot where i was always alone as a human. i say that i was always alone as a human, because the spot was always occupied by crickets and sleeping birds and the breeze of the wind ( Read more... )

my parents went away for their anniversary. of course, when your parents go away, you throw a party. i must say the party was amazing, and i was so drunk i was spinning. it was the best and worst time ever, all in one night ( Read more... )

my phone barely ever rings. it makes me happy when i get a call out of no where, so you should definately hit it. 5169729112.

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the weekends leave me alone; so to kill time that i am alone, i find myself walking around my town at midnight. it's so sad. after walking by myself for a half hour i lay myself on the concrete and stare at the black sky. imagine how great it would be to just get sucked into the sky.. i could watch everyone. i would see all the things people do, ( Read more... )

friday around midnight i decided to meet up with dan and attempt to get drunk. however, two drinks mixed with vodka and a whole bottle of champaigne did nothing. instead we just went to sleep ( Read more... )

right now i feel like i've been hit by a train. this weekend has been filled with nothing but dissapointment and me bitching. i need something good to happen to me. i need some friends who are actually friends. i need friends who will do whatever, whenever.

you know the deal; forget those who have forgotten you.