Dear Dad ( Read more... )

i cant fucking sleep. this is why ( Read more... )

im sitting here listening to sappy love songs. i just read (for some unknown reason) ALL of my previous LiveJournal entries, majority of my Melo entries, and a few of my MySpace entries. wow. i took so much for granted. so many people and so many memories that i never appreciated until now, when its too late. when things went wrong, i never stuck ( Read more... )

i attempted to write this long entry on how i feel... but i stopped myself. it hurt too much. and the words werent coming out right anyways. i ended up writing the same sentance about 16 different ways, all saying the same thing: "i love you, i miss you, i want you in my life". but theres only so many times i can say it aloud before i break down. ( Read more... )

All that I have found in reason ( Read more... )

so things have definatly changed! the 2 people i was forever confused about and both go to hell. ok not really... but i dont want them anymore. i love them to peices and i like that they are my friends, or at least pretend to be, but i dont want them as anything more. they are too effing confusing. one day its "i want you. i miss you. im going to ( Read more... )

so my mom just called me and told me that i should stay at her house thursday night. i asked why. she said well cuz after work on thursday we are gonna go see brandi and then on friday we leave for utah. i had totally forgot about both of those things. and it makes me sad. i dont want to admit to it... but i know why it makes me sad. its pathetic. ( Read more... )

SAN DIMAS HIGH SCHOOL FOOTBALL RULES ( Read more... )

so yeah i had an interesting night. i went to alibi east (gay bar, pomona) like i do every saturday night. was totally blown away by how many people were out to get me nad my 2 friends lauren and deejay. every saturday up until tonight, all of the dancers loved us! everytime we woudl walk in they would immediatly start coming up to us and giving us ( Read more... )

so i go to myspace and i see this new bulletin from the girl im talking about in my previous post. i click on it and she has a new picture. its of her and the guy i was talking about in my last post. so here i am, staring at a picture of 2 people i care so much about and like so much and i feel like shit. they dont know about each other. she thinks ( Read more... )