I find myself feeling really down today. Not sure why. My cousin went to Paris recently with my aunt. I wish I could travel like they do. But I can't and I would really only want the food so it's not my top priority, yet here I am, envious. I just had to look up definitions to make sure I knew what I meant. There are too many words to express a ( Read more... )

At first I decided there were too many negative vibes from going on FB. I had read (an agreed with) psychologists who said we exaggerate how great we are doing. When someone asks us how we are doing we say "good" and life goes on. FB is a superficial look at how amazing my life is, look at how wonderfully well I am doing. I am a very honest person ( Read more... )

Life is good. I don't stop to realize it most of the time though. Ken and I are able to put money away AND pay for my college, we have a place to live without the hassles or sharing with others ( Read more... )

Apparently no one has been on FB recently, either that or everyone is just reading ( Read more... )

I restored my last draft and it said "Ken and I just bought a Christmas tree" ok, so it's been a while. I'll try to do better ( Read more... )

The internet is such a scary place. I was bored and wondering why I hadn't heard back from any of my craigslist postings so I googled myself. WTF, there's this website called linked, I've heard of it before and it had me listed with my recreational specialist job, when I tried to log in it didn't recognize my email so, I don't know how they got me ( Read more... )

So things are getting better. Monday night and Tuesday night I had very scary paranoia dreams. The kind involving rape/murder/stalking. Then yesterday I watched a movie that documented two people who stalked and KNEW they were destined to be with Tiffany (a famous singer from the 80's who is now married and has a child). One had ausburgers (sp) and ( Read more... )

I'm feeling better now that I am on a lower dosage of Topamax. I'm a little down today but it's the same shit. When I lived in Concord I always felt the people there were, well kinda boring. No one really did anything except occasionally have house parties. Now that I'm in SJ I have the opportunity to find more exciting people, people who want to ( Read more... )

Today I'm having an incredibly hard time concentrating, I tried reading carrieaki's LJ and could not read it, I just jumped around and hoped I understood. I watched a movie and 45 minutes in was itching to get out of my seat. I did not take my medication last night. I plan on taking one pill every night instead of the 2 pills a night and one in the ( Read more... )

I'm strangly excited for a school day. Today's weird. I love my live journal. it's my whatever journal. The one for FB is all PC cause people judge or critic but here fuck it i can do what I want fo sho. I made a yummy pasta bake tonight. Whole wheat spiral noodles then in the casserole dish they go with meat pasta sauce and topped it with ( Read more... )