blah. so annoyed with everything lately I feel. blahhhhh.

on a better note, I talked to my mother, and if the tennant doesn't buy our other house (not the one we lived in forever, the one my parents bought right before they built the new one) she agree's that it would be a good idea for me to live there and find roommates when I move home. which ( Read more... )

 there are so many things going on in my life right now, i wish I could just stop and re-evaluate. I wish I could rewind and replay certain other parts ( Read more... )

Soulmate

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a ( Read more... )

I found myself thinking about you today. Maybe because birthday's make me think about all the people I care about in my life... I know its not my birthday, but being that it's Aut's and she considers me her best friend it just makes me think of all the people I am close with and once was close with.

What happened? why did you shrink away...not that ( Read more... )

wtf... who am I these days.... more importantly, who is it that I want to be? I'm not even concerned with what others think, or will think... I just don't even know what I think. What it is that I inevitably want...what I want for now, and what I want for later. things are soo upside down and backwards right now. I don't know which way is up, and ( Read more... )

High

You walk around, Head held high
Never stopping to wonder why,
Friendships fade until they're gone
Never lasting very long.
Elegance; the mask you wear
Ignorance; the truth you bear.
People falling out of place
Emptiness you'll never face.
Say what you mean,
For lies are seen.
Please mean what you say,
Or go away.
Fragile lives you take for granted
Your ( Read more... )

I have a lot to learn about myself. you can think that you are the only one who could possibly know yourself, but when you really think about, I mean really think about it. You probabaly know yourself the least. Because in all honestly, you don't have to deal with yourself, other people do, so all the little nuances that you don't ever have to ( Read more... )

wow... so over this b.s.

I'm ready to be done with it. However, I'm forever stuck.

so I have been superrrr busy lately and a lot has been happening and changing in my life. I can't remember if I wrote about it or not, but Susan got me a job with the florida highway patrol, I was working for the program planning and special operations as an ops staff assistant... however, they could only give me 20 hours and they only paid 7$ an ( Read more... )

all he wants to do is argue. I feel so angry right now, I hate that I let him get under my skin. I know thats what he is trying to do, because he is an asshole. I just feel like I need to prove myself to him for some reason. he has such a fucked up idea of who I am, and it really really really really bothers me. I know I shouldn't care... but i can ( Read more... )