I need something new.....I'm impatient and I want it right now. I don't know what "it" is... just something, anything...someone would be great... but I just want a change... whether it be of scenery, or of circumstances....anything! I just can't stand being BORED. its one of the worst feelings in the world. ugh.

why am I letting him affect me? I know that he's not even anything I want. I mean he's good looking and he's funny...but he's not that sensitive, and he's not that nice... I mean he talks a big game. He thinks he's all these things that he's just not. why does he have that he's looking for a relationship when he's clearly not...well maybe he is, ( Read more... )

... I do not belong anywhere.

so it feels really good to be back in tallahassee...not so much the town as the people in it. Its really bizarre to me that I don't feel like port orange is my "home" anymore. it makes me really sad. I feel like other than my parents and autum, there is nothing there for me at all. its weird that you can live somewhere for 18 years and then feel ( Read more... )

ok so...today was pretty bad. This has really been an awful week for me. emotionally I am just exhausted, lost, scared, hurt, tired, overwhelmed, etc etc....The more time I have to myself the more time I have to over analyze everything. and I'm undecided if this is a good thing or a horrible thing... I am leaning towards the latter.

My mom called ( Read more... )

I want so much to just be loved. I want so bad to make everyone around me happy. I want people to crave to be around me... but I can't help but feel so out of place everywhere I go. I mean a part of me feels like I fit in a little bit here and there, but I worry so fucking much about making everyone happy that I don't feel like I fully fit in ( Read more... )

I somehow always manage to get myself into situations where I am, inevitably, going to get hurt ( Read more... )

So I have been uber into astrology lately thanks to Rubi and Cyn, and its so much fun to learn about. I know those froo froo sites are so flipping general, but when you really dig into everything and get a comprehensive outlook, its almost eerie... for example I put in the time I was born and the location and you can find out your Natal Birth Chart ( Read more... )

so i just have to start off by saying thank you sooo much to cyn brit rubi and karen... I seriously love you guys so much! if it weren't for you guys my birthday would have been a bust, and I'm just sooo happy that I have you sexy ass bitches in my life anyways..so thanks and MUAH ( Read more... )

so I'm trying to stay guarded because I don't want to end up hurt and depressed again... but at the same time... I keep thinking it will be ok if I let down all my guards, it will work out ...please, dear god, just let him be for real ( Read more... )